Believe in yourself

Just a quick post for today.
I've heard some people say, that as they look for the new year coming, they are looking for a new career. or that thing that you're wanting to do.
It might be that course, or that trip overseas, or some other things.
Sometimes we get a bit wary of doing the same thing over and over.
If that's you and you're not looking forward to the new year, why don't you get a journal and write some things down, and you start to plan where you are wanting to go.
Perhaps you've noticed a few patterns in your life, or of recent times.
My brother who spent a few days with me asked a very good question.
Why am I the expectation killer?
Now you might laugh, at that, but I am possibly the best expectation killer that is possibly in Dunedin.
I lay in bed wondering why, and asking God, why I am like that.
The truth is, I plan for the worst, and expect the best, but if our plans don't go well, we get in our minds to always expect the worst and that is what I was like.
Next year will be different because I haven't lived away from home, let alone a new town, but I'm looking forward to it, I'm glad that I have this opportunity.
I'm not expecting the worst, it's a small town with a good lot of people in it, and hey I won't get locked in any herb gardens, all Nana's will be safe drivers, and I won't get locked in a exe-loo again.
I'll be calm and I'll just bake on.
So believe in yourself that you can do possible things, because you know you can.
And not be the expectation slayer, be an expectation high acheiver
Chloe

When it all just gets a bit too much

Hi there.

I don't know about you, but as the end of year approaches your engery gets less and less.
Perhaps it's been a really good year for you, perhaps you've had some heart ache or something unexpected happen out of the blue.
Perhaps you're feeling a little bit sad, about what you wanted to do and it hasn't happened that way.
Perhaps you're just wanting for a change, but you don't know when that is.

Let me tell you, it's ok.. when somethings don't work out, we are getting now into the stage of things, that our lives have to be perfect, that present under the tree has to be such an amount of money that there's nothing to enjoy in the new year or the year ahead.

It's ok to have a good lonely cry, if somehow, you've just been hard done by, or something in someone's elses life is rising to the surface, perhaps you've played the Christmas game way to long, to keep it together for the kids, the grandparents, if you don't have a feast at Christmas time, will that important mother in law know all about it?
Will it get around that you didn't have enough to pay for it?
I  had that happen to me the other week, I had some money left to me, and I went and thought I'd be in my budget, but alas it was way over, what I thought, so something went back when I got to the check out.
I stood there, as nice things had to be taken out of the bag, and into a box ready to be put back on the shelves.
I walked out there proud because the check out person was so nice, about it, and made it within my budget.
Now you might be on the other side, saying, oh you should have known, use your smart phone to add it all up.
Or wouldn't some nice soul come in and buy them for you to save the day?
A lot of us, can go around completly burnt out, and not know, because we have the must save the day mentality.
We must save that person, we must help them feel better, or we must help them  by doing something nice for them, serving helping being Christ for them, always going to their rescue.
But what if God doesn't want us to be like that.
That was me, and that is now.
What if God this Christmas comes to me, and says '' you're over doing it''
What does Jesus require of us?
To walk humbly with God, not walking around with our chest out, with all the church badges pinned on our chests as long as our arms.
To go into a quiet room, to sit before God and telling him what you need.
And sometimes that need might just be space, it's ok, not to go to every office party, or to answer the door to everyone, to have a meal for everyone, who comes.
Perhaps you're cooking away today, wondering if it's all worth your while, perhaps you're wondering if anyone will notice that things are just a bit lower standard that usual.
My frined, if you need help, or rescuing, don't be afraid to accept someone loving and kind, this year, because you've been there for them.
And you know what, it's such a lovely feeling of rest when someone says' now what can I do for you?
 it might be a salad or buying meat for the bbq, dinner, it might just be a nice deep down to earth chat with a good friend.
And that could be God, it could be other people,  it might be recieving that lovely blessing back.
By a card in the mail, or linking up with someone on facebook, or renewing an old friendship.
God blessing never runs out or runs dry, it is always like an over flowing fountain, that just keeps going and going.
Perhaps you need that, a beautiful rest by a fountain, its ok not to go out and be with people when you don't feel like it, you don't have to answer the door when there's nothing in the tank.
Chloe

December Thoughts

Hi there.
Well it's nearly that time of year, when the new year is coming.
And I was thinking about, about things the other day.
i was on the net, and I came across this really cool story.
I don't know about you, but there seems to be a pattern going around, and it's really bad for our character.
I can't speak much, because I have done it this week.
Thats grumbling or gossiping.
We think by spreading it, or making it big, we will get people to our pity party.
We hold unforgivenes  and grudges, and we set a heart of hate in us.
We are only doing it to ourselves, because, it's hard to go against the flow.
I was having a grumble to my friend Guan, and she said something so wonderfully wise.
It made me feel heaps better about what I was going to confront.
She said when we trust and put our faith in Christ, he is our prince of peace, Jesus has heaps of names, but we think about that, he is our peace.
When everything is going mad crazy, when we don't get that break we need or a worker lets us down, or puts blame back on us, we are more than conquers. It's hard and tough, and it's really unpleasant at times.
But we are made stronger.
When we speak up, we are doing not only for us but for other people.
If you think about Nathan the prophet when he confronted David about Bathsheba, it wasn't for Nathan's gain, it was for David.
Confronting in a Godly and wise way, is hard, but when we pray or tell others to pray for us, for strength for people who listen, and take it on board.
Nathan was human he was going into a very personal thing, a very hard problem, telling David that his son will die due to the sin comitted.
Now I'm not saying that because of sin it will get worse, but when we speak up about treatment, we encourging people to raise the bar in themselves and in their work.
So next time when you're tempted to spread it,  take time, pause for 5 secs and get to know Jesus the prince of peace.
That's all that I have today, and if you're caught, up in a trap that you have to perform, and keep up with the appearances, you don't have to.
God has made us strong in our weakness.
Chloe

special needs

Hi there,
How's your week gone?
I hope that you're having a nice day.
It's sunny here in Dunedin, the roses are out, and it's nearly Christmas time.
The time when you think about Christ coming down to earth, and saving the world.
What sort of special need do you have today?
What makes you stop and think, to look up at the sky and say in your heart.
'Lord I need your help in my special need.''
Now I'm an 80s kid, and I have special needs, as you probably know who are my friends.
But today I was so angry, just about everything got my angry, I was waiting around to do something with someone, and it didn't happen, and no one got back to me.
I hadn't lost my temper, but if I had today all over again I wouldn't want to wait.
My friend what are you waiting for?
What's got you all upset, and it might be over something, realistic, or it might not.
And you might think that God is up in his big chair, and not doing a thing about it.
Or it might be due to the fact that you can't take a rest day.
Perhaps that is all that it takes, a rest day, to drive somewhere away and enjoy yourself.
When something or someone makes us angry, the thing to do is, and it's the most easy thing.
I know because I have a temper it comes with my disability, and when it shows I feel so annoyed and I betray myself.
Is to pray, not just once in a blue moon, but really do some good study on the word of God, about what makes us angry, perhaps it's going after the thing that God said to leave it to rest.
The horse might be dead along time ago, but we're still riding it.
Find out if things in your life are dead, and lifeless.
If they are, we need to come to the conclusion that a new thing is growing.
And to go after it, it might be a new direction or a friendship, a new job, that you wanted or are working towards.
You read in the magazines about people going after a new direction, well if you have special needs, or a special need, what about putting the things that God has told you are dead, and going after a new direction.
God is on the move  and he's on the move today, get your running shoes on and go after it.
Work not worry,
Live life instead of hating it.
Chloe