December

Hi there,
How are you?
I hope that you're good.
Today I want to talk you to you, about somethings that I've been going through, and perhaps you can relate or perhaps not.

Perhaps, you're just here, because you just need to be here.

I want to talk you you, about somethings that I've missed out in my own life.

I've been consecrating on the wrong things.

And I would like to get them out in the open, because it's healthy to do so.

If someone today asked you, as you look back on the year, and Christmas day, what's been happening, what have you been happy about? what has made you unhappy, what has been happening in your life, and you were brutally honest.

What would you say?


I'd say this, I've had highs and lows, I've had up and downs, I've had thought that every year, I'd meet ''the one'' and each year, I get excited.

We've done some pretty cool things, this year, I've seen 2 of my best friends get married, I've been close to my best friend, who found her husband online, I've felt the lonelyness of it, too.

We've opened up a gym that is going really well, and I am proud of my brother for having the fore sight into it, because he believes, in what he is doing.

I've seen my brother cover top stories for a majour news paper, I've seen my Dad's cricket team come out on top of the girls cricket team and be the best in new zealand.

I've made some choices on my own, that was moving away from what I knew and do further study, and move away from my friends, to futher my career.

I've been proud to put on my whites, and use my knives, I've made some really cool friends from overseas, where others might feel a bit lonely in including them, and make fun of them.

I've had some cool things happen at work, and some not so cool things happen.

I've broken down in tears, at times, because it got a bit too much.
I've had some amazing, results in written tests in exams.

I've invited everyone to my pitty party and no one came.

I've even wondered if I had bipolar.

I've felt total mess, and loss of things, and the only thing that has worked, has been fur.

So why do I go through these things?
Because it is life.

This is life, and it's hard, it's gritty, it's life, and sometimes, we are in the middle of some really tricky situations,and we just need to ride it out.

And yes sometiems it feels like we're swimming in a rip, and it's carrying us way out of the normal for us, perhaps we're going into the unknown, perhaps we are just giving people answers just to keep them queit.
Perhaps we're even thinking about ''buying our friendship.'' beacuse we just want someone around, or to stick or to stay.

Our parents and friends can only give advice, that is right for them.
It sounds mean,  but we are all different.

I work in hospo, because I believe I can cook, but I'm not going to work in a Michelin star restaurant.
I can bake, but I won't be working in a flash as french pastry shop.

I can look after animals and say I've got 4 certificates in animal care, but I am not a vet nurse, cause I couldn't put animals to sleep.

I've liked guys, but I won't say I'm a serial dater.

You might be in the middle of something, that looks grey, and lets be honest no one like grey areas, people might  have you hanging.

You might be in a seasonal job, where they might need you occasonally, but can't be given,  gurreenteed work hrs.

I don't know, but all I do know, is, that nothing is life, is wasted.

Nothing, is wasted, every thing you look at, be it jam on toast for breakfast, your coffee, your lunch, your dinner, your friends, your work, your study, you've done study, that has come up at the right time for you to do.

Your family, yeah some parts are ugly, some are tricky to navo.
but they are your family, and at the end of the day you do love them.

You stick at it because they are all that you have, and your friends, sure some might be anoying, but at the end of the day, they are the ones that would really give you a high five or a treat because hey they are your friends.

and you don't need to buy things just to keep them your friends.

Saying goodbye to the past, is hard, it's incredably hard, but it's the right thing to do.
So no matter what sort of year you've had, no matter what you're walking through right now.

God is right there, in person, walking you thruogh it, because he believes in you.

Chloe

Got too much on your plate?

Hi there.
Have you ever thought when you were  going through a really busy time, the time when you just drink coffee or energy drinks just to get through the day.
All of sudden things just mounted up, and once in a while you think it's wonderful that you're keeping yourself busy.
It feels great to have money coming into your bank account, the jobs keep coming up, and things are still needing to be paid.
Then you have a day off, and you think it's strange just to sit down and read a book?
Or feeling guilty that you haven't done a thing about dinner.
While others are so hungry in the world, I thought about that the other day.
There was a supermarket trolley full of baked goods going out in the skip simply because they were past their used by date.
And it got me thinking, suddenly what you think is good isn't.
Burn out can happen so fast, that sometimes you don't know how to function because you're all the time busy.
You simply aren't made to be a energy battery, and sometimes something has to give.
You can't keep saving or rescuing people if you see if happening, but you can care about them.
And sometimes you need to put your foot down and tell people that they aren't the ones calling the shots, you're boss is.

Struggling to believe and rise again?

I was talking to my aunt over  lunch at the gardens the other day.
It was perfect, because I hadn't noticed the flowers that pop their colorful heads up on the ground.
I had been too busy working.
My auntie Jan and her husband had come back from a mission trip to Fiji.
It was really encouraging again to a weaken me.
I was talking to my friend at work yesterday, to ask if she can pray for me, I was so weak I didn't know if God was really there.
We all have those moments, we seem fine on the outside, but confused and cracked on the outside.
My friend, who is Chinese, have me such amazing advice  said to pray for righteousness in situations that aren't right, when your back is against the wall, that all sorts of plans are in your head.
So friends if you're going through a really hard day, and nothing seems to go right, just pray to God for the spirit of Righteousness to come and minister to you.
Jesus didn't have it easy on earth, but he had to come and make a way for us to come and live Righteousness and live in hope, because we now we can have hope, and that spirit that rose Christ from the dead, is living with us.
Chloe

December thoughts.

It seems such a long time ago, in my teens that I started this blog.
I had no real reason why, I started it, I guess it was to get my thoughts out there.
So in a way, I am writing for myself.


I don't have many thoughts, this December, as it gets closer to Christmas, we're always wanting, to impress others.

We can go into the dept with the biggest, presents, or secret Santa presents that go into the hundreds, but is that only what we think about Christmas?

How do we get away from all the commercialism?
How do we get past this like a brick wall that blocks our way?

We all want to be someone, and impress them.

What happens if we just sit back and examine ourselves? think clearly for a while.
and just think what really needs to be done.
You'll find that things will be come simple, it's only because we make them over complicated at this time.

We want  ''to out do'' the previous year.

Living away from home, and going home for Christmas is going to be cool, all adult children, with one new kitten.

Sure we all wind each other up, that's because we've all come home from all different part from New Zealand.

After all science has proven that it's good to have sister.

Perhaps I'm a half baked sister, maybe one that no one really wants, but hey I'm here, and my family has to get used to it,
I might get over excited, at times, yeah I might just wake up my brothers,  early and sit at their foot of their bed at 7 am, and really want to know how they are going.
 Probably not the best, time for a deep and meaningful convo.
But there we we go.
Nothing really, changes,  I guess, my encouragement, is, no matter what sort of mood you are this Christmas, no matter if you feel like you've got to out do the others, you don't.
My encouragement, is  no matter where you are in your life.

Life is short, live it well, people like spending time with them, they don't necessary remember the money that you spent on them.

How do I know?
Cause I just do.

prasing God when your stuck in the middle.

HI there,
How are you getting on?
Well it's a crazy time of the year, when the weather is supposed to be sunny, and people are all out buying Christmas presents.
And the songs are playing in the malls, and people are out for catching up, and socialising, which is fun.

How has the year been for you?
What have been some high lights for you this year?
I was talking to my friend, who had 3 amazing things happen this year.
She graduated, she got engaged, then she got married.

Perhaps you've moved out of home, to a different city, perhaps you've brought a home, and your well settled, perhaps you've got all your things sorted out for Christmas.

For me, when you get older, you don't want all the fuss, you don't want the competition, of who has the best present, and it does happen.

What do I want this year for Christmas? not much, it doesn't take me much to be happy.

Yes we have worries, yes we might be living on the minim wage, or on when as required contracts,  yes we might want those good old days back, the days when everything was sunny, happy, everything just worked.

Life is precious my friends, I know, and that is the greatest gift of all time, yes you might be stuck in the middle, yes you might be too kind to your friends, yes you might just jolly well have plainly had enough, of people sucking you dry, but don't despite them, because it will eventually come back around.
You might not really know it, but you buying them that coffee or, drink or ice cream or treat, might have saved them money for a bus, or something else.

You might just be that link in peoples lives, that you don't see it now, but they will come back, and thank you.

And if you're wondering, at this time of year, ''can you be bothered?" well the answer is yes, it has to be, because if people, weren't bothered, there would be no jobs, no salary, and you wouldn't be around.
Jesus didn't give up on us, he didn't think for one moment' I can't be bothered today,'' he had it really hard, he lived with people who sort of believed, he hung out with the unexpected, people, the people you don't normally hang out with.
 Imagine, if he wasn't bothered with the sermon on the mount?
Imagine if he wasn't bothered, with the women who suffered from hemorging for 12 years, she tried everything.

She had nothing left to live on.

When we live in despite times, we look at ourselves, and it makes us think, ''Right I have $20 this week, what is needed?"
And that is me.

And yet time and time again, Jesus is there, emotionally, physically and always provides, I've never been without blessing.
So if you're thinking are you stuck, in the middle and can't see a way out.
Praise God cause he will and can give you the rescue that you need.

Chloe