Good good father.

 Hello my friends.
How are you?
I hope that you're well and good.
I just want to encourage you this morning.

To pick up your bible and read it, to find hope in this time.

If we're just living and surviving, through the motions.

If things are going good, with you that's great, but be careful not to live by your emotions.

Rather put all our trust in the lord.

He is our first love.

I remember one day recently it was just yesterday, Andrei noticed me not taking deep breathes, We had just come through a rocky time.

And he squared my shoulders looked deep into my eyes and said "Honey, take 5 deep breaths in and out.'' I had become so wrapped up in what was going on, I forgot to breathe.

How many times have we forgot to breathe or carry the load ourselves?

Sometimes we think that taking up our cross should be a burden, and there therefore we don't always take it to the lord.

And lay down our troubles to the lord.

To learn to be content in these times.

Not basing it on how much we earn, or what will happen, after all we can't take money to heaven, we can't buy Christ love for us.

We can pray into things, hoping to move the thing by ourselves.

We burn ourselves out, but all is one thing is required, to be still and offer simple prayers to our lord.

Jesus in our Good good father.

He gives us the things when we need to it.

His timing is perfect.

We might go through really difficult things, some might not have been our choice.

But there is a lord, above who still cares, the sun still rises.

Suround yourselves with good friends, who are Godly, and councilors, who will help you.

Don't close up like a clam, in your own room, the walls will make you cost phobic.

There were some things coming out of a breakdown, I learnt, somethings are out of our control. Forgive yourself, forgive others.

And get out and let the lord do the work in you. I had the lord, bring somethings to me attention.

Our garden that needed lots of work, and my horse Chantelle, some me time.

We all need Me time, to heal and restore.

I had dear Mary my psychologist who got my wings back along with bible reading and journaling.

It doesn't mean tht I will take  nose dive.

It doesn't mean I will be fine, that my pride gets in the way, but I have a loving God, who will always be with me.

He gave me Andrei, who notices when I take on mentally too much, I close up inside.

He knows, the red flags, the times I cried into him because it was too much.

His arms around me making me safe, the notes he leaves gives me hope.

He wants to go home, to see my parents, he one day wants to care for them.

My mum told me not to come back, if we keep going out.

But I know that she has her own issues to work through.

I've again cried to andrei,

Early on in our relationship knew how hard my mum can be.

There's no filter, and says things bluntly.

I can get on with my dad, mum doesn't say things in the back ground.

My home is lovely with it's garden, but if we are to come back, we might have to talk.

I'm with Andrei and his parents now.

They don't complain, they don't keep score.

But in all this we thank you lord.

Lots of love .
Chloe

My thoughts about covid.

 Hello my friends.
I hope that you well.
Covid has gripped the world, and living in wellington, we have protestors.

Some people love our PM, some people don't.

I've had friend worry about me, say their piece, I've lost friends because I'm not vaxed against it.

It's caused a real division, in our country.

There's a petition, to the PM to fix the issue.

I've come through   a rough patch, I'm not licking my wounds, but I don't need people telling me that they are worrying for me.

I haven't got my head in the sand, vaxed and un vaxed can still get covid, it's just like  a flu, that is what Ashley bloom field said.

If people are sick, it's taken precauions, on not going out, not going to work, getting tested, not sigma around it. just being sensible.

The world has a new fear around this, people have been hit hard.

Just the other week, my boss at the ice cream store, told us to band together cause stores could be closing.

It's very sad to hear that, Jesus always said that you will always have trouble.

It will never be easy.

There is no quick fix for this, but I think that if we look out for each other, being generous to other not shying them away, or pushing them away because we're seen as lepers'.

Is that being a true Christian?

It says in the bible, that, get our own house in order, then see to help others.

How true.

Well that's all for me.

Chloe

1st year in

 Good morning my friends.
I hope that you're well.
Today is a beautiful day today.
I have taken my nervous system support, and finding good benifits of it.

So we've been married for a year, it has been a lovely journey so far.

I do love Andrei so much, he gave me a lovely weekend away, for our wedding anniversy  and valentines day.
He gave me flowers and  a rose bush.

It has tiny rose buds on it.

I love Andrei much, I love how he's strong when I face some hard things.

He's so strong, and offers so many lovely things, he always points me to Christ and tells me to read my bible.

I'm getting back into my bible reading.

It's his birthday next month, it is lovely. we hope to go back home for a bit.

I saw Carolyn the other day, she is doing well she's having baby number 2 soon.

It was lovely to be in prayer time, in the times it's hard to pray.

The lord answers every prayer, in his time.

Well the washing is nearly done, and I'll put my whites out on the line.
Lots of love.
Chloe

Coming through the storm.

 Hello my dear friends.
I hope that you're well.
I am sorry I've been amiss, Life things got in the way.

But I'm back fighting fit.

On Sunday it's our wedding anniversary, we are going away to Param for a few nights.

I have been thinking of you all.

I am good now, it has been  a stormy few days, I was sick with work anxiety, where I couldn't face it.

So I went back to my natropath, and she has me on nervous support, for my tired and exhusted nervous system, and taking time for me to download and think about things.

So I have been journaling in a seperate journal, and going for long walks with our dog oscar, and Andrei has been a great support.

I've chosen to leave Kafee Eis, and go for a baking job at muffin break here in Johnsonville.

There have been a few things leading up to this change.

One was the health of Andrei, he has been having more sezuires recently, but praise Jesus they have stopped for now, so we went back to Libby, and she did a hair sample, to find out what toxins there is, that Andrei is alergic to.

The rise in petrol, and parking also had  a part to play.

And just somethings that happend at work, which wasn't good for my mental health made me change jobs.

Looking back now, it was odd changing jobs, I certainly believe in seasons, that there is  season under heaven.

So if your in the year of not much or in the year of plenty, give to the lord, he will bless it.

If I wasn't a baker, I would be a writer, and I am in the process of putting out a book.

My lovely friend Abigail, is doing the art for the book, I have just finished another one.

Time to get them off the lap top and start dreaming of my goal.

There is  publishing house in Jville who can do the books.

I have already friends wanting to buy the book.

It makes me happy.

Well it's Andrei's lunch time and we are out to Porruia, for lunch and bank.

Lots of love.
Chloe Nicolas.