Have you ever been caught between a rock and a hard place?
where you feel stuck, in between and there's really no way of moving forward or out?
You just want to curl up in a ball, and just pretend nothing has happened, or something really big has happened and you just regret about your choice?
Sometimes you need to close the door, and just stand back and see what happens?
Things can get out of hand very quickly, and sometimes that's out of your control.
However sometimes it isn't and people do take it the wrong way. while others want to have justice. However friend, you're free from all that stuff now.
And if you feel like you're not,don't hide away alone, don't put all your energy, into life. that you're not happy, find ways that make you happy, for me it's writing, that's my happy place.
It's where I can get out of of control of others, and just be me.
So if there's any encouragement, for you, just hang in there and keep going, don't stop, don't look back, move onto newer brighter options, and keep them open.
Never settle for second best, don't settle in the middle, go right to the end.
Chloe
Thursday, April 25, 2019
Tuesday, April 23, 2019
Reckless love
Good morning there.
How are you?
I hope that you're good and well.
What have you been doing today?
This morning I went to the gym, at 4:45 this morning.
And I was in the garden all day yesterday, and I'm about to go out and take down a really big tent.
So that's on my 2 do list.
When I was in the garden, thinking about my life, and you take stock when you're out in nature, you really do.
I was confronted by my pastor, when we don't take Jesus for who he is.
What is Jesus to me?
Well he's everything.
You might not be holding onto him very tightly, you might have turned your back, but the thing is, he doesn't on you.
I'm quite an impatience person, patience isn't one of my virtues.
It takes work to work on patience, and kindness, and goodness.
It's time to deadhead in the garden, that is when all the flowers, have stopped flowering, and it's time when they turn brown, to cut them down.
And I felt like this, and Jesus knew that.
I thought life has long time passed me by, everyone else is doing level 5, and here I am, going to back to the drawing board, at the age of 31.
So I was thinking about my friends, and wishing I had their lives.
Yep how many of us do that?
We tend to think that the grass is often greener on the other side.
We often compare to them, we get our measuring stick out and we think we don't come up to their standard.
It often stems from something in our lives, that we have expereince as a kid.
Just putting it out there.
We often find ourselves competing for something.
We take that into, our adult lives cause we haven't learnt to deal with it as kids.
I was talking to a friend, who I see quite often, and I remember as a kid, writing down a list on what I'll never do, who's done that?
NO?
Or mentally?
NO?
OK, just me that's ok.
Breaking away, from the norm is hard, because it's our comfortable zone.
We trust in the known, not in the unknown.
Trust is hard, it's a learn built up thing over time.
Tramatic experiences, shadow, all that, and we wonder why we can't see the light anymore, it's not saying that it's not there, it's just that the clouds, or our thoughts have made it dark for a time.
Life is never easy, it's never a straight road, to follow, you have to navigate your way around choices, that we make ourselves, at every turn.
, and things like that.
We need our friends, and family, to be there for us, we need kind people who care, without wanting anything in return, and it's so selfish now days.
We all want something in return.
But to love them, as Christ loves them, to speak words of life, not trying to bring anyone one down, tall poppy syndrome.
So what can you get out this post?
Well we are loved by a reckless love, and that is Jesus.
And he will come after us, he will kick door down, for us, he will love us, with the most amazing love that no human can give us.
So put away the measuring stick, and all of that.
Be a person who keeps their word, that speaks value into people's lives.
Chloe
How are you?
I hope that you're good and well.
What have you been doing today?
This morning I went to the gym, at 4:45 this morning.
And I was in the garden all day yesterday, and I'm about to go out and take down a really big tent.
So that's on my 2 do list.
When I was in the garden, thinking about my life, and you take stock when you're out in nature, you really do.
I was confronted by my pastor, when we don't take Jesus for who he is.
What is Jesus to me?
Well he's everything.
You might not be holding onto him very tightly, you might have turned your back, but the thing is, he doesn't on you.
I'm quite an impatience person, patience isn't one of my virtues.
It takes work to work on patience, and kindness, and goodness.
It's time to deadhead in the garden, that is when all the flowers, have stopped flowering, and it's time when they turn brown, to cut them down.
And I felt like this, and Jesus knew that.
I thought life has long time passed me by, everyone else is doing level 5, and here I am, going to back to the drawing board, at the age of 31.
So I was thinking about my friends, and wishing I had their lives.
Yep how many of us do that?
We tend to think that the grass is often greener on the other side.
We often compare to them, we get our measuring stick out and we think we don't come up to their standard.
It often stems from something in our lives, that we have expereince as a kid.
Just putting it out there.
We often find ourselves competing for something.
We take that into, our adult lives cause we haven't learnt to deal with it as kids.
I was talking to a friend, who I see quite often, and I remember as a kid, writing down a list on what I'll never do, who's done that?
NO?
Or mentally?
NO?
OK, just me that's ok.
Breaking away, from the norm is hard, because it's our comfortable zone.
We trust in the known, not in the unknown.
Trust is hard, it's a learn built up thing over time.
Tramatic experiences, shadow, all that, and we wonder why we can't see the light anymore, it's not saying that it's not there, it's just that the clouds, or our thoughts have made it dark for a time.
Life is never easy, it's never a straight road, to follow, you have to navigate your way around choices, that we make ourselves, at every turn.
, and things like that.
We need our friends, and family, to be there for us, we need kind people who care, without wanting anything in return, and it's so selfish now days.
We all want something in return.
But to love them, as Christ loves them, to speak words of life, not trying to bring anyone one down, tall poppy syndrome.
So what can you get out this post?
Well we are loved by a reckless love, and that is Jesus.
And he will come after us, he will kick door down, for us, he will love us, with the most amazing love that no human can give us.
So put away the measuring stick, and all of that.
Be a person who keeps their word, that speaks value into people's lives.
Chloe
Monday, April 22, 2019
Be still and knowing that God is good
Hello my dear friends.
How's it all going?
I hope well, for you.
Perhaps, you're just waking up, or been up for a while, perhaps you're thinking about what to do today.
I say today, at half past 10, on a good Monday morning.
I want to talk to you about the freedom on Christ, and being still in him.
When was the last time you felt him dear and near you?
Was it yesterday, was it last year? 5 years ago? or 5 minutes ago?
I want to encourage you, today that he never leaves us, nor forgets us.
I am encouraged by my dear friend Mel, who has recently been married, and yes I want that too.
But all in good time.
My friend, Mel, has so many break ins, and recently her engagement ring was taken, and has now texted to say that her car was broken into last night.
2 things in a week. that's rough.
They have found a better place to live but won't move in 5 weeks.
How is this encouraging you might ask?
You don't know me, Chloe
Well that might be true, but I do know that there's a man up there that is madly in love with you.
That he died for you, but he's not on the cross any longer, he's in you.
How many of us have gone around, thinking that Jesus is still on the cross?
That our situation won't change, it can't change, it just can't?
You don't know, all the stuff, all the promises I've made and broken, all the things I've done.
My friend, Jesus knows, you know he' knows us so well, that he knows, how to give good things to us at the right time.
Then why is there death?
Why is there sin?
Why am I a human mess?
Well we got jealous, we thought that we can out do Jesus, we jumped the gun, and we turned our backs on him.
That's why there's death.
And with death there's sin.
Then why am I human mess?
We aren't all pefect, and we just need friends, that take us as we are.
That with Christ, with good church, with good council, we can rebuild what has been broken, and be healed.
And you know, sometimes, it's not the nice houses that we have, it's not the money that we have in the bank, or the people that we have in our lives to make us successful.
What really matters?
Yourself, yes, you.
You matter, you matter to me, you matter to the friends, to your parents.
For years, I had battled with not being confident in myself, I had given that power over to my family. and to my work.
It's only now that I've getting it back.
And as I told my friend, I said ti's like being let out of prison, for the 1st time in my life.
See fear, dear friend is like a life sentence, it locks you up mentally, emotionally, and yes physically .
When we see that we are free, we can give out to others.
For along time, I was a mental mess, and it's only now that I am free from all that stuff.
How did I get free?
Well I had sozo, an amazing Holy spirit talk with the lord, to get me free from all that, it it's good.
Throughly recommend, a sesson, or a couple.
I am now free from the past, and you know what?
It's amazing, because you are totally free from it, it's not coming back.
and it won't come back.
Chloe
How's it all going?
I hope well, for you.
Perhaps, you're just waking up, or been up for a while, perhaps you're thinking about what to do today.
I say today, at half past 10, on a good Monday morning.
I want to talk to you about the freedom on Christ, and being still in him.
When was the last time you felt him dear and near you?
Was it yesterday, was it last year? 5 years ago? or 5 minutes ago?
I want to encourage you, today that he never leaves us, nor forgets us.
I am encouraged by my dear friend Mel, who has recently been married, and yes I want that too.
But all in good time.
My friend, Mel, has so many break ins, and recently her engagement ring was taken, and has now texted to say that her car was broken into last night.
2 things in a week. that's rough.
They have found a better place to live but won't move in 5 weeks.
How is this encouraging you might ask?
You don't know me, Chloe
Well that might be true, but I do know that there's a man up there that is madly in love with you.
That he died for you, but he's not on the cross any longer, he's in you.
How many of us have gone around, thinking that Jesus is still on the cross?
That our situation won't change, it can't change, it just can't?
You don't know, all the stuff, all the promises I've made and broken, all the things I've done.
My friend, Jesus knows, you know he' knows us so well, that he knows, how to give good things to us at the right time.
Then why is there death?
Why is there sin?
Why am I a human mess?
Well we got jealous, we thought that we can out do Jesus, we jumped the gun, and we turned our backs on him.
That's why there's death.
And with death there's sin.
Then why am I human mess?
We aren't all pefect, and we just need friends, that take us as we are.
That with Christ, with good church, with good council, we can rebuild what has been broken, and be healed.
And you know, sometimes, it's not the nice houses that we have, it's not the money that we have in the bank, or the people that we have in our lives to make us successful.
What really matters?
Yourself, yes, you.
You matter, you matter to me, you matter to the friends, to your parents.
For years, I had battled with not being confident in myself, I had given that power over to my family. and to my work.
It's only now that I've getting it back.
And as I told my friend, I said ti's like being let out of prison, for the 1st time in my life.
See fear, dear friend is like a life sentence, it locks you up mentally, emotionally, and yes physically .
When we see that we are free, we can give out to others.
For along time, I was a mental mess, and it's only now that I am free from all that stuff.
How did I get free?
Well I had sozo, an amazing Holy spirit talk with the lord, to get me free from all that, it it's good.
Throughly recommend, a sesson, or a couple.
I am now free from the past, and you know what?
It's amazing, because you are totally free from it, it's not coming back.
and it won't come back.
Chloe
Wednesday, April 10, 2019
Walking in the dark
Hi there,
How are you?
I hope that you're going well, and succeeding in life.
I've been writing this blog for 5 years.
If you sat down with me, and had time with me, what would I say?
Keep moving forward, because life always is motion.
Yeah it hard to walk away from things that you've had it's been good, equally hard when you're fragile, and broken, and lets face it, we're all broken.
We beg for the ones we love, don't leave, don't walk away.
I am 31 years old, and I've seen a bit in my time, how you might ask?
You're not me Chloe.
Trust me, I have, I've seen a very angry father loose it front of his kids, I've seen him, beat my younger brother, just because.
I've seen my mum in tears, trying to smooth over the terror of my little brother.
I've been locked in a bathroom, with my father sexually abused.
I've had him nearly strangle me, just for a written test.
I understand, when people think God is a god of mercy, that who are for us who can be against us.
One of my favourite people who sing is, Pink.
cause she sings from the stuff that is tough and gritty, not making, victims of our own things.
Says me, who has just asked a friend, to see if it's ok, for me to call him cause I like the sound of his voice, I know I should walk away, but I can't.
I'd rather have love and be hurt than not love at all.
So in conclusion my dear friends, my point is.
No matter what you're going through, make a point today, to move forward.
Cause you have to, you have to love yourself, and walk, it might not be in a straight line, it might be the hardest thing to do.
But you have to.
How are you?
I hope that you're going well, and succeeding in life.
I've been writing this blog for 5 years.
If you sat down with me, and had time with me, what would I say?
Keep moving forward, because life always is motion.
Yeah it hard to walk away from things that you've had it's been good, equally hard when you're fragile, and broken, and lets face it, we're all broken.
We beg for the ones we love, don't leave, don't walk away.
I am 31 years old, and I've seen a bit in my time, how you might ask?
You're not me Chloe.
Trust me, I have, I've seen a very angry father loose it front of his kids, I've seen him, beat my younger brother, just because.
I've seen my mum in tears, trying to smooth over the terror of my little brother.
I've been locked in a bathroom, with my father sexually abused.
I've had him nearly strangle me, just for a written test.
I understand, when people think God is a god of mercy, that who are for us who can be against us.
One of my favourite people who sing is, Pink.
cause she sings from the stuff that is tough and gritty, not making, victims of our own things.
Says me, who has just asked a friend, to see if it's ok, for me to call him cause I like the sound of his voice, I know I should walk away, but I can't.
I'd rather have love and be hurt than not love at all.
So in conclusion my dear friends, my point is.
No matter what you're going through, make a point today, to move forward.
Cause you have to, you have to love yourself, and walk, it might not be in a straight line, it might be the hardest thing to do.
But you have to.
Tuesday, April 9, 2019
The hurt and the healer.
Morning.
How are you?
I hope that you're having a nice morning. Nice and sunny here in invercargil.
I don't want to talk about, the usual things as I have been talking about.
I want to talk about, moving forward, in life.
We all live sep lives, we all have different lives, we all have different friends, we all have people who are there for us, and sometimes they are stronger than family.
I love my family I always will, we all make mistakes, we are do not proclaim we have it all together.
No one does.
The God of angel armies is always by our sides.
We have live our lives not in fear, but of freedom.
You might be walking through fire, you might be walkign through burning coals, you might think who will believe me?
You know, God does, he always believes in us, and loves us, and cares for us.
Has he ever left you hanging? not showing up?
He always does?
Did he ever turn his back on you?
Do you feel like he has?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIZitK6_IMQ
It's in these moments, my friends, that we need to be held by Christ.
You know, some choices has been made for you, some are out of your control, some are up to you to make.
My friend, you're not alone, you're an amazing piece of art.
No matter, what happens, you are held by a lord and saviour that has given so much for you to live.
Our race has started, it started when we were born, and we don't always run the perfect line.
We run into obstacles, we run over rough terrain we even run into doubts, and the uncertainties. We might be knocked down, but we're not down and out, not by a long shot.
It's time for us to live our lives, you know when Christ carried his own cross up that hill, he was unrecognizable and his mother Mary must have wanted to step in and save the day.
But our Lord, is coming back, and he comes back with more power, to help to heal to carry us when things don't make sense.
You might think you're unlovable, who would want me?
Well I do.
You might think no one understands?
I do,
And one day, we will trade our pains and sorrows, the shattered pieces that we thought could not be mended, in God's hands, they are you know he picks them all up, and mends them back together, even to say that better than we even were.
That's all I have time for now.
Chloe
,
How are you?
I hope that you're having a nice morning. Nice and sunny here in invercargil.
I don't want to talk about, the usual things as I have been talking about.
I want to talk about, moving forward, in life.
We all live sep lives, we all have different lives, we all have different friends, we all have people who are there for us, and sometimes they are stronger than family.
I love my family I always will, we all make mistakes, we are do not proclaim we have it all together.
No one does.
The God of angel armies is always by our sides.
We have live our lives not in fear, but of freedom.
You might be walking through fire, you might be walkign through burning coals, you might think who will believe me?
You know, God does, he always believes in us, and loves us, and cares for us.
Has he ever left you hanging? not showing up?
He always does?
Did he ever turn his back on you?
Do you feel like he has?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIZitK6_IMQ
It's in these moments, my friends, that we need to be held by Christ.
You know, some choices has been made for you, some are out of your control, some are up to you to make.
My friend, you're not alone, you're an amazing piece of art.
No matter, what happens, you are held by a lord and saviour that has given so much for you to live.
Our race has started, it started when we were born, and we don't always run the perfect line.
We run into obstacles, we run over rough terrain we even run into doubts, and the uncertainties. We might be knocked down, but we're not down and out, not by a long shot.
It's time for us to live our lives, you know when Christ carried his own cross up that hill, he was unrecognizable and his mother Mary must have wanted to step in and save the day.
But our Lord, is coming back, and he comes back with more power, to help to heal to carry us when things don't make sense.
You might think you're unlovable, who would want me?
Well I do.
You might think no one understands?
I do,
And one day, we will trade our pains and sorrows, the shattered pieces that we thought could not be mended, in God's hands, they are you know he picks them all up, and mends them back together, even to say that better than we even were.
That's all I have time for now.
Chloe
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