When you're finished running.

Hi there,
How's things?
I hope that your'e having a nice afternoon.
It's windy here, but also sunny.

Today I want to talk to you about, the things in your life that are going on, no matter how big or great, fantastic or you just want to hide away, and just wish it all to go away.

God is always there, you know, he knows the parts that are pretty, the things that need work, and the really ugly, ''God please don't go there'' parts.

I had just finished a test, one that I just had to try and make sense, and hope for the best. if I got an adverage over 100 percent over 4 tests that was enough in theory, to pass my written exam.

I celebrated with a hot drink, as I was really surprised that the hardest test gave me the right % to get over that thresh hold.

I was, waiting for my drink, and i normally support my local cafes, only to find, that, someone has seen me wearing a sports sweat shirt, and not only that, has taken photos, somehow put them online, and made up a calling number, to call through, so that people in this town, know's where I am.

True I like looking nice, everywhere I go, but when I heard that, suddenly I wasn't a person in this town, I was, a fake.
That someone out there has made a calling, number so that if im out enjoying myeself, I can be seen.

But do they know that what I am going through?
That that is a breech of privacy,  that it's not the photos that people take of me. that is the thing.
It is, the fact that no matter where I can go, people can call through.
Tears of confusion, and all that came.

I was angry at the person, who came to the wrong conclusion, that i was a person who I was not.

I am from a humble back ground, helping where needed, and on call when needed, where you are, then you work so hard to achieve that, not because you are helping them but you're also, helping yourself.

In today's world, there's so much competition, and there's so much you hope and open yourself up for, only to get your wires crossed, and used.

What was I going to do?
Well I was angry, very.
I really dislike people taking photos of me, thinking I was a model,  and in this day of age, cameras are so accessible, that we don't need to ask permission, to take them.

We're in the year 2000 not in the 90s when you'd go and get your photos developed, we can share them on anything we like.

It is a strange sort of town, a place where you are sort of bullied to be toughing up. but we don't need that as humans.

You know, what we need are, some people with good and kinds hearts, to take the bruised the damaged people in, to help heal their wounds, to sit with them, for a while, and just love them for who they are, and enjoy the journey with them.
Not entering in the wrong stories, or make up one and go with that, we might want them because they are popular, but look at why you need them in your life.
we might be going through some stuff that might be messy, but in that mess, God is always there to take us in whatever way,shape or form.

We can't let little things get to us, we can't just go off like fire crackers, with all guns blazing.

That is what the devil wants, to ''sort it out in our own strength.'' but we know that we can't.

Well it's time for my cup of tea.
That's all for today.

when you are acutally enough

Hi there,
How's it all going for you?

I hope that you're good and well.
How's your day going?


Today I want to talk to you, about life, and what is going on in your life, in mine.

As I was listening to some worship music, and the pastor at church last night, I was sitting there, and I had doubts, some are ones that are only between me and God.

Trust is one of them, how do we take God at his word, when everything seems so swimmingly big, or wave upon wave comes and we get swamped, by our own head and words.

And it get exhausting, it really does, because when we put in our energy,   into something that is wrong, or not right, no matter how or what happens, your energy is sapped, and you know it's wrong.

but we are blind to it, because we keep thinking it will get better.

Relationships are hard, they are really hard,  cause you are opening up, to all the unknown, you are taking the risk.

However, the best relationship, we can have is with Jesus, because he will always be there, and he will bring us through anything, that we go through.

When we have doubt, when we get disappointed  humans will let us down, again, again and again.

The Lord calls us to trust him with everything, with our lives, with our work, with our friends.

We are called to take up our cross, daily, and hand back our friends and offer them up to them in prayer.
No matter what is going on in their lives.

We can't always fix, the other person, we're not called to do that, we can't  and sometimes we do need to lift up our hands, no matter if they are full or empty, strong or weak.
We need to know the healing, of God, and we need to believe that he does, heal, that he clears up any doubt we're going through.
We need to lift up our hands and believe again.
Chloe
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Being patient

 How good are we at this?

When we live in such a microwave enviroment, when we can heat things up in the next 30 seconds, and we can have it.
Or we have a credit card, and we can just whip it out and swipe or pay wave.
Or lay-by?

How good are we when we on our patience scale?

We might be thinking '' oh yes, we're way above anyone else with this.'' they are way down at minus 0 and we're about a 9.

How many times, when we have friends around and they are half an hr late, and we are getting edgy and anxious, and all that, then no appology no nothing.

it takes time to program our day in, we might not do anything, we might just have a day off and not do anything or think of anyone inparticular.

It might just be a loaded question, and you want the answer now.

Bu they might take time to get back to you,  I remember when I met someone  I thought that they were fantastic,  i was blind I was telling him all this stuff, and I just didn't really know how to go about it.
I was taking advice from my friends,  he was 33 years old and I am 31 we are both chefs so we know how the trade works.

But it become clear, that when I tried to ring him, on his phone, he only wanted messenger, and texting, and not ringing that he doesn't feel the same way as me.

I was giving it all out, but not getting anything in return.

There wasn't a spark, and I was camp leader trying as hard as I could, with my little flint to make it spark.

To open up like that, is risky it is risky why?

Because you don't know how the other person is, you don't know what they are thinking, it might be something it might not be nothing.

I was checking my phone daily minutes seconds, facebook messenger, everything, then I suddenly realized that this thing is making me sick.

It took my focus away from my study it, from what I am called to do. To succeed in my cheffing life, in my trade to use my knives in such a way to put up good dishes.

not to be obessed with my phone, or messenger.


So we've had a week away from contact, and I have to say that it is freeing, it is freeing why?
Because more and more doors open up, things start to work, and when you know that you know that God is in your life and always has been.

So my words to you, is if you're new to this dating, getting to know someone,  don't try to so hard that it exhausts you.

You have to let it go, and you know the Lord is the only one that can use his super natural ''sand paper'' like spirit to  rub off those edges that you have and make them smooth.

Chloe