Put out your recycling.

Hi there,
How's life going?
I hope that you're good.
What's been happening?
I have been thinking about you, and I hope that you're all good.

I just want to share with you a short message today.

It comes from a sermon from a couple of Sunday's a couple of days ago.

Don't forget to put out your recycling.

What do I mean by that?
Well let me explain.

We all have recycling bins, that we put out maybe once a week or once every fortnight.

We all have in all of us, recycle bins, the things we try to save  ourselves or other people from doing.

It's ok, for you to be different, it's ok, for you to have meltdowns, and cry, and cry and cry, cause obs, something is there that makes you upset, and needs to come out.

Alot of my time, I was very upset, as a kid, anger bred every day in my family, if not everyday it would be in the weekends, someone would be angry at something, and so this was passed down to me.

It wasn't until I had some amazing counselling, that I thought hang on a minute, this isn't right, it's not normal, for people just be angry just because the sake of it.

And for me this was the norm, this was me, just plain angry.

One revelation was, that my friend told me, that it's ok to be angry, providing you deal with it.

The only thing was, that in our family, we liked holding on to it, for days, like, unwashed rubbish in recycling bins.

It was that persons fault, or this persons fault, or they didn't do it right, or not how we would want them to do. so this made me the person I am today.

Trust is massive, for me I had so many walls that I had built over time, and things were crumbling, I felt insecure, ashamed of who I am. I'd post things on facebook, and my friends would be ringing.

I'd just want them to shut up about how good there life was if I was completely honest.

World war,  9.10, 11 had just started, and I was back in my ditch.

If i was honest, I was ashamed, of myself, because I let my self become, this wreck, and what if people really see the real person I was?

what if I didn't care for my family who made me like this?
 and cared for my friends?
well that is what I did, I made abs sure, that I wasn't going to turn into my parents, I'd promise myself, that no one will ever see my kids.

I'd promise myself, not to let anger, just get in the way, of stuff, obstructing, the view of real life.

Life was in short to short to hold onto stuff, I was wanting to be free, of this.
 I was going to put out my recycling, once and for all, and when you put you your rubbish, the thing is to, leave it at the curb for the truck to take it away, it's going to be different, but you're going to be ok, because you know yourself now, you know you can do it, even without conscent of others.

Chloe

Is there a difference between being angry, and being righterously angry?

Hi there,
How's it all going?
I hope that you're good.
As I write, this  I am at the Cove, and drinking coffee out of my ''Mr Happy'' mug, and I look around at the table, we have ring binders, magazines on the table, and a dried flower arrangement.

I think of all the nice things in my life, I think back to the days in Timaru, with pan cake Saturdays, and walks around Caroline bay, and walking down to my favourite cafe, with all nooks and crannies.


You might have some lovely memories that you had with your children and grandchildren, and you know, that's something nice and special.

I was talking to my councilor friend, when we were bluff we'd walk up the hill, then walk around it turns out I run faster than him.
Dad and I laughed at this, he said '' I guess you were wearing your best clothes,  and you just took off.'' not really, just  my normal sprint.
It will be good to get the cove connected to the rest of the cycle way, into town.

However I am getting off topic.

It got me thinking, of human emotions.
I used to be angry, as a child, then I learn that was frustration, and I liked fairness and to this day I still like fairness, now in life my dear friend,we don't always like what we get, or how we are treated, but they are people, and we are all equal.

In the bible it says ''don't let anger go down before the sun goes down, or in your anger do not sin.''

I asked my friend this, and he said it's human to get angry, you can't stop it, you can't always fix people, and you can only deal with yourself.  and getting angry,  doesn't help, '' going in there to sort it out'' doesn't help.

I'm not trying to say that you can't get angry, you can, but do it righteously.

So that others, know and think about how you're going to go about it.

Have outputs in place so that if you do get angry, that others don't carry that on or for you.

So that you don't destroy your good name and you're hard work.

If you do have a problem, you know talk about it to someone, yeah sure I'm an open person, I like to talk, I wear my stuff on my sleeve, I also get taken advantage on, and stuff goes on without me knowing.

And that's ok, I do get that, but if it's stuff that goes on, and it wrong sure I will see the best way on going about it.
My friend, if you think it's just like a rolling ball, and things go on, and it's not being dealth with, you're ok. you can have people in your life, that will help with that.
Don't look for sides, never ever take sides, it doesn't work, it's school behaviour type stuff.

And you know, you've got good friends, friends, that love you, that love having you, that you make them laugh. and they understand you, and trust you, and they know, that you're not that sort of person.

You're completly normal.

So dear friend that is me, it's nearly time for me to love and leave you and do other things.
But that's me for now.
Chloe

enjoy where you are right now