those human moments

Today I want to talk to you, about those human moments.

Those ones, in your life, where you go there in your mind, or perhaps you're wondering you are going in your life.

I am 30 years old,  and now it's time to make my own way, which is really scary, because I am a late starter, confidence doesn't really come easily.

And in cheffing gosh you need that, and why am I doing a cheffing course at the age I am?
Well work is quiet, so I thought Id make the most of it, and just go for it.

So that's why, I'm doing it, I wouldn't say I'm a natural, I wouldn't say I'm particularly good at it, but I enjoy it.


And in those human moments, just be yourself, don't freak out, or let things become too big, or else you dwell on them and they will destroy, you.
be free of what others think of you, don't go on other peoples opinions, or thoughts just be yourself.

And you'll come out the other end, stronger, it might feel like you're going through hell, you might have expereinced something that no human should have expereinced.  you might be so afraid, to go outside, you might be waking up in your sleep, with things in your mind, that just play over and over like a tape on pause.

No matter, what you've done, no matter how ''fallen'' you might have labled yourself, or others,  label you, no matter, what others think of you.
The Cross has made your flawless, no matter how deep the scars go, and if they reopen, no matter, if people think it's over, and you know it's not, perhaps it is for them, but it's the start for you, the start of healing.

Healing means, alot of things, if you think of a wound, what happens in a cut?

There's blood, and obserously, a wound has been caused, and it needs to heal from the inside out.

And covering the wound makes it less likely to become infected, you might use some antibacterial spray to stop it becoming infected.

My friends, perhaps that's life, perhaps you've been cut, hurt, walked through things, that you had to tell your heart to beat again.

You've been keeping things in way to much, to stop the ''infection'' in your life.

But there comes a time when you need to change the bandage, no one like a wet damp stinky bandage  on a cut.

It's time to move on, time, to burn the ships to the past, close the door, be strong,  and close the door, and just love life, and let yourself be you.

Chloe

when you're up against it

Hi there.
Well it's been a long time since I've written, and since then I have moved out of home and living in invercargil, which is still a city that surprises me.

I want to talk to you today, about being strong, and standing up against the wind.
Something that is really hard to do sometimes, especially when you're in the middle of it all. But we know that we are strong, stronger than we think we are, or even care, and even having a good mind about the outcome.

And that means heaps to people, people like to know you care, that your not just another person. Treat everyone with respect, and love because as someone told me recently, when you give out you receive double,even though you might not like where you are at the moment, even though you want to be strong through it all, you are. and people look out for you, they really do.

One thing is, that today is a different day that yesterday, and today will be different for tomorrow, and you will have an amazing day today.
Sometimes, we can't always make sense of our lives, and sometimes, we love the ones that hurt the most.
For me, I want to run around try to fix people, but sometimes we can't always do that. sometimes we need to leave them alone for while, or else we smother them, and we're just another voice, another banging gong, rather, than holding back, and waiting, to see what they think.
Sure sometimes, in life, we get these people and we feel smothered, we feel dictated, we freeze up, and we make plans, we aren't flexible.

And sometimes, we get the opposite, sometimes, we get these people, in life, that force themselves on us, and we didn't want that either.

Victim it's an interesting word, we can blame it on our families, even if we come from a good one, or relationships. there's nothing wrong on getting excited, there's nothing wrong with that.

We shouldn't force ourselves into things, and let the other person speak.

What do I know about love?
Well not much but I'm willing to learn, love for me, isn't just bodidly desires, it's not pretty people, or dresses, or trying to please,  conversation should flow easily, and not awkardly.

I am 30 years old, I know some people think I should have gone around the block, a few times, seen what's out there.

But recently I'm scared of all people, simply because I went through a scary time, recently, and men really scare me. it was a case of someone trying to fit in, and forgot that it was actual sexual harassment, and yes, did get threated with rape and murder.

The only person I could actually trust was ''Mr View sonic, eyes.''

I mean that in a good way, who ever is reading this.

We need to bring things into the light, and get them out in the open, and I realize that not all men are scary, there's a lot of good guys out there.

And guys thanks so much for looking out for the girls.

Because what might seem harmless, might really be dangerous, that's why the #metoo movement is so strong, cause, when girls hear things, we know it's not right.


It  plays on our mind, like a tape stuck on rewind.

But we've parked this issue, and we have it sorted.

Time to move on and enjoy life, you can't stand in the way of progress.

And we all need to move  forward  don't we?

Well that's my thoughts for today, time to close down the computer, and head outside for a great day in the garden.