Hello there my friends.
I hope that your well.
I am currently writing this from my room in Churton park.
We have just finished a really big storm. We had storms in Dunedin.
We had a thunder storm the other night, that really shook the bed.
When I lived down in Invercargill we had storms, ones that would light up your room.
How are you going?
Now in this storm that we had my lemon verbena plant still thrived.
My parents have a bush, more like a tree really, and it would die down, this plant my dear Speld teacher gave me one from Invercargill, and the small green shoots are still going strong.
It's had everything on it, like hot sun in late summer, to freezing temps, to days out in the rain, thunder, this plant is still going strong.
I must admit I haven't looked after it, it seems that it will look after it's self.
Have I neglected the plant?
I'd say 100 percent yes, and it's still growing.
Do we neglect ourselves?
Do we wish to disappear?
Are things looking too big right now?
Are we like the Lemon Verbena plant out in all weathers, and still growing?
Before my breakdown, I was fine, I didn't know much about mental health, I knew about depression, as more and more of my friends, suffer from it, and also anxiety.
We were a family that just got on with it, but my brother Matt suffers from deep depression, and I was always wondering why from the outside was he so happy, so it seemed.
I have always prayed for my friends, as we need to look after ourselves. I know deep down the feeling of utter dispar, and very dark thoughts.
See I had a relapse in lock down last year, I was wondering where my happy songs went, from the one I had.
I had to come to Jesus and fully rely on him, that he would get me through this, plus my medication.
My switch of meds changed, what was a switch over that would be done in month, was crash coursed into 4 days.
My brain couldn't take the time to heal so I took another nose dive.
I am however well again, making good plans.
I am living in total freedom, and loving life.
So lessons from my Lemon Verbena plant, out there in all weathers, still going strong and green.
With it's young tender shoots, because that is what my name means in the greek.
I am flourishing and you are too.
Lots of love
Chloe
