November thoughts.

Hi there friends.
How are you?
Today  is sunny down in invercargil, and I've been out doing gardening with dirt under my hands.
It felt great to be outside, with air in your lungs, weeding, and making things tidy.
Which was the inspiration for my  post today.

I will try and keep it brief and to the point.

In the garden that we have here, is a water feature, a pond, with a tree fern, quite close by. around the base of the pond, is a stony walk path, that was covered in leaves, weeds and the stones were hidden from view. So I ripped in there, and cleared it all away. It didn't take much, but now we have a nice little clean feature.

I cut back the dying branches of the tree fern, and made a bit of focal point from it's beautiful trunk. Padding around in bare feet pulling out weeds for the day was very enjoyable.

It got me off facebook, it got me away from the things that happened in the morning.

And it also inspired me, to write this.

Life can be a bit like that stony path, we might have a beautiful feature, in ourselves in our friends, or what ever, but we are blinded by the stuff that needs doing, the stuff that covers who we really are.

So who am I?
What am I?

This got me thinking, about where I am heading.
Am I heading down a track that is always going to be covered with the next big thing? the next meltdown? am I going to be crying every time I hang up the phone to my parents because they are struggling to trust me with my life with what I want to do?

Do we trust ourselves, in what we are capable off?

Finding ourselves, seems rather hippy, rather alternative, strange, but we all need to do it.

We need to surround ourselves with good people in our lives, that will carry us through the storms, that understand us, that won't go behind our backs, will trust us, will love us, not because we are ''someone'' but rather because they are our friends, and yes some of my friends are better than family.

So whatever you are doing now, think about what is out there, what is stopping you from reaching that goal, that burning desire, and start your journey of doing it.
Don't be like the leaves, the dirt the rubbish on the stony path, to sidetrack you from doing what you need to do.
Don't listen to that voice, of '' you'll never ammount to much'' because those are lies, and look full straight ahead, make small steps, and you'll be right there, making hystory.

Well that's me, for now,
Take care
Chloe

Goodbye meltdowns

Hello,
How's your week been?
What's been happening with you?
Today I want to talk about, something that has been on my mind, something that possibly will help you.

I know I've been going on, and on about things, and perhaps you're tired of it, I don't make excuses, I'm not going to be a cookie cutter Christian, or person, boxed, the world is getting more and more self absorbed in ''what about me, always about me.''

And let me tell you, it's not all about yourself, it's about must have coffee in the morning,  to survive the day, it's not about sleeping in so you can get some sleep when the house is quiet.

My friend, sometimes tears come, because you need healing.

 You might be the strongest person, you might be  right, then sometimes might happen and it crashes all around you.

When that happens what happens?

Who do you go to?

I'm a share things, and perhaps a bit to much on social media, but you know sometimes you need to know. Life is gritty.

It's not all sugar coated, it's not all about relationships.

Even though they are great, the other sex is fantastic, I have many friends who are guys, and guys have been so understanding, without them I'd be a complete mess, more than I am in now.

Life does get messy, but it's in that mess, that the most amazing things happen.

Life starts to bloom in the dark.

The chains that bound you in the dark, well they don't have any grip on you, any longer.


Now it's up to us, to come in our own times, to let go of it.

Are you willing, to let go of your control, of what you want, and just live life in freedom?

The king of heaven wants you, he wants you so much, that the world has lost it's grip on you.

No matter, if that door in your life strives and tries to open up, so that perhaps maybe all those  things in the pasty  try to come out and haunt you.

God is always there, you don't need to pretend everything is fine,  even church, we don't just go to church we are the church.

Go with God, make a stand, to no more meltdowns, cause um you are brave, brave than the person, that you think you are.

Having drama, in your life, and meltdowns are exhusting. Remember those  ''hello'' sticky name tags that you were at functions, the ones that always end up on your  soles of your shoes?

You don't want to be ''hello, my name is.....'' and I'm Miss never fun.

or ''I'm meltdown chloe''- that's a good one.

Not only you'll get a name for yourself, but it's not you.
 and other people will know it's not you, because you are more than that.


One thing that I love about my dad is, not only does he love cricket, and I hope when I'm in dunedin, I can go along, and pretend that I know what it's all about,  yeah I know, it's crazy, but I Just love seeing people enjoy it, me and lemon lime bitters, some good baking and I'm all set.

Dad, is honest, I guess you have to be when you teach year 2 girls to the ones that just want to be finished and done.
 any way, Dad keeps me having short accounts, and infact my brothers do as well.

make sure you have in your day, one good thing happen.
 yeah?
 yeah, got it?
 say goodbye to meltdowns, say goodbye to drama, to toxic things, to things that you've ''owned.'' for far to long.

Go you there, buy the shoes and the dress, life is too short friends.