If I'm honest.

 Hello my friends.
I hope that you're well.
I have ended up at Kaffee Eis, and now at simmer cafe.

I am thankful that I have extra days, I'm not to sure, I've gone from extremes.

From 2 days a week, to 6 days a week.

It's so interesting, when you pray, I prayed for extra days, from one extreme to another.

I don't mind doing dishes, cause it's keeping my mind busy, and good.

And those times when the alarm goes off, at ten past 5, and you're wondering what this is crazy, what for, but you think of the yummy cinamon rolls, the free food, it's all worth it.

I need to stop of pause, and think, my goodness I need to think.

I'm always, saying yes, Andrei said yes, I love him so much.

But if I'm honest I don't  think, I think for like ten seconds, fast execrate and going at it.

Not always helpful.

The thing is if I'm honest, I love how Christ loves us all the more, love is selfless, it's not keeping up with the jones.

Inner peace comes from the holy spirit.

If I'm honest I'm like a space cadet, a bit of a loose cannon.

But I have God on my side, and my lovely Andrei to run things past.

Sometimes in life we can just go through the motions, and then boom out of no where something comes from left field.

And that is, we are facing an ever changing world.

We go through changes, but it's how we grow through them.

At the moment I'm growing three things, an orchid, peony rose, and my dutch iris.

I hope very much that everything grows, my iris is growing so much, so they are growing alot.

My orchid once sunburnt and stresssed, much like me, had wet roots, and doesn't look happy.

My peony rose has buds but are going on holiday.

Now I might have been thinking of a great garden, in pots, indeed i do love my plants, sometimes a bit to much.

I was very hands on with my orchid, to the point I lost one of my minis.

But we live in hope.

So if you take home a few things it is this.

Be honest with yourself, keep your eyes on christ.

And learn to grow through things.

Lots of love.

Chloe

Making your mind up

 Hello and good morning my friends.

I hope that you're well.
I am always amazed at how the lord provides.
When we give ourselves over to him.
We have been isolating for  a week, and TBH, I thought I wouldn't survive this.
It was nice not having, to go to work, and nice to sleep in.
I have been testing and it's a negative test all week.
I have also been applying for new jobs, both here in Churton park.
 I can save so much money, by cycling to the cafe rather than paying 18 dollars a day on parking.

I went to a natropath, and she said I'm always stressed.

Part of me wants to go, and part of me, wants a change, so I've applied for the dish hand job at the cafe.

I felt stuck, in my job, my anxiety hit an all time high, and I hadn't really been sleeping through since the vaccine passports came out, thinking it's a down to my cooking.

And I had stress from others as well in my work place.

So once I made up my mind to leave, I could apply for more jobs locally.

Andrei has applied for a job over seas, in Brisbane, with IT and tourism.

so the dream of spending time over there is sort of coming quicker as I first thought.

He has an interview this morning.

I'm reading my bible, daily and going into prayer for Andrei.

He has been sezuire free for  a while, providing he stays off Msg, all malt extracts, and the like.

He is kind and loving.

We look to Christ and remember what the minister said,  at our wedding not to go ahead of Christ.

We are also going back home for a week next month as well.
So I'm looking forward to that.

Keep your eyes on Christ.
Lots of love.
Chloe

Take time to enjoy life.

 Hello my friends.

It's been  a little while since I wrote my blog.
I am on the couch with my diary, my kindle and wearing my new blue slippers.

I've been well, I made bread, and jam last week, this week is pretty relaxed.

I was quite emotional, last week, I was every where.

But that was due to other health reasons.

I am back on track.

My potted garden is going well, my dutch iris is going well, they are through the ground and looking good.

My peony rose is going well in it's pot, still dormant, but happy.

Sadly my orchid died, but I replanted my moth orchid and looks happy now.

We are cycling, and did a nice cycle on sunday near Lyal bay to the air port to have a coffee.

And we cycled back to the car.

It is Andrei's birthday next monday, so I'm thinking of making a practice cake soon.

He is still very sweet and says that the practice cake, makes the suprise less special.

I just want a cake in the house.

I have also been called panda, see my face book page as to why.

On sunday, we had a lovely sermon, in the word of the lord.

Called better together.

In this really crazy time, it is good to be encouraged in the word.

We are planning on coming down to dunedin, I want to take Andrei to Omaru, to see the steam punk captial of the world.

He is reading a steam punk book at the moment.

I am reading more francene rivers books The Shofar blew.

Oscar is good, he is such  a lovely dog, he doesn't like be left out of anything.

So we go well together.

I do enjoy dogs.

Well that's me, short and to the point this morning, as I want another cup of coffee.

Lots of love.

Chloe

cleaning up room.

 Hello my friends.
I hope that you're having a really lovely, nice day.

I've had my nervous system support, and now listing to, to James Taylor.

"How sweet it is to be loved by you.'' Our favourite song.

I've been cleaning up our room, it's great to be, cleaning up, I've got things to post down, to friends.
I've got clothes all hung up and feeling good.

It's the 1st of march, and I've got things to do, I've got, an extra day at the cafe, this week.
We've got Andrei's meet up group on friday, and I'm going to see my friend Marlene, who made us the journal.
Carolyn is still waiting, for her baby to come.
Charlotte is waiting to have baby number 5, which I think is wonderful.

My thoughts go back to the horse riding, I used to love riding Wilson, and Chantelle.

I have enquired about RDA,  I need to loose weight, I need to join  waiting list. I might not ride in winter, but they have an arena.
I rang my nana last night, she's was good and light hearted.

She's been cleaning windows, inside and out, not a mean feat, at age 78.

I hope that someone has passed on the letter I wrote to her, that Oscar and I walked to the post center.
Well I've got plants to feed and prune, a winter hibiscus. 
Lots of love .
Chloe

Good good father.

 Hello my friends.
How are you?
I hope that you're well and good.
I just want to encourage you this morning.

To pick up your bible and read it, to find hope in this time.

If we're just living and surviving, through the motions.

If things are going good, with you that's great, but be careful not to live by your emotions.

Rather put all our trust in the lord.

He is our first love.

I remember one day recently it was just yesterday, Andrei noticed me not taking deep breathes, We had just come through a rocky time.

And he squared my shoulders looked deep into my eyes and said "Honey, take 5 deep breaths in and out.'' I had become so wrapped up in what was going on, I forgot to breathe.

How many times have we forgot to breathe or carry the load ourselves?

Sometimes we think that taking up our cross should be a burden, and there therefore we don't always take it to the lord.

And lay down our troubles to the lord.

To learn to be content in these times.

Not basing it on how much we earn, or what will happen, after all we can't take money to heaven, we can't buy Christ love for us.

We can pray into things, hoping to move the thing by ourselves.

We burn ourselves out, but all is one thing is required, to be still and offer simple prayers to our lord.

Jesus in our Good good father.

He gives us the things when we need to it.

His timing is perfect.

We might go through really difficult things, some might not have been our choice.

But there is a lord, above who still cares, the sun still rises.

Suround yourselves with good friends, who are Godly, and councilors, who will help you.

Don't close up like a clam, in your own room, the walls will make you cost phobic.

There were some things coming out of a breakdown, I learnt, somethings are out of our control. Forgive yourself, forgive others.

And get out and let the lord do the work in you. I had the lord, bring somethings to me attention.

Our garden that needed lots of work, and my horse Chantelle, some me time.

We all need Me time, to heal and restore.

I had dear Mary my psychologist who got my wings back along with bible reading and journaling.

It doesn't mean tht I will take  nose dive.

It doesn't mean I will be fine, that my pride gets in the way, but I have a loving God, who will always be with me.

He gave me Andrei, who notices when I take on mentally too much, I close up inside.

He knows, the red flags, the times I cried into him because it was too much.

His arms around me making me safe, the notes he leaves gives me hope.

He wants to go home, to see my parents, he one day wants to care for them.

My mum told me not to come back, if we keep going out.

But I know that she has her own issues to work through.

I've again cried to andrei,

Early on in our relationship knew how hard my mum can be.

There's no filter, and says things bluntly.

I can get on with my dad, mum doesn't say things in the back ground.

My home is lovely with it's garden, but if we are to come back, we might have to talk.

I'm with Andrei and his parents now.

They don't complain, they don't keep score.

But in all this we thank you lord.

Lots of love .
Chloe

My thoughts about covid.

 Hello my friends.
I hope that you well.
Covid has gripped the world, and living in wellington, we have protestors.

Some people love our PM, some people don't.

I've had friend worry about me, say their piece, I've lost friends because I'm not vaxed against it.

It's caused a real division, in our country.

There's a petition, to the PM to fix the issue.

I've come through   a rough patch, I'm not licking my wounds, but I don't need people telling me that they are worrying for me.

I haven't got my head in the sand, vaxed and un vaxed can still get covid, it's just like  a flu, that is what Ashley bloom field said.

If people are sick, it's taken precauions, on not going out, not going to work, getting tested, not sigma around it. just being sensible.

The world has a new fear around this, people have been hit hard.

Just the other week, my boss at the ice cream store, told us to band together cause stores could be closing.

It's very sad to hear that, Jesus always said that you will always have trouble.

It will never be easy.

There is no quick fix for this, but I think that if we look out for each other, being generous to other not shying them away, or pushing them away because we're seen as lepers'.

Is that being a true Christian?

It says in the bible, that, get our own house in order, then see to help others.

How true.

Well that's all for me.

Chloe

1st year in

 Good morning my friends.
I hope that you're well.
Today is a beautiful day today.
I have taken my nervous system support, and finding good benifits of it.

So we've been married for a year, it has been a lovely journey so far.

I do love Andrei so much, he gave me a lovely weekend away, for our wedding anniversy  and valentines day.
He gave me flowers and  a rose bush.

It has tiny rose buds on it.

I love Andrei much, I love how he's strong when I face some hard things.

He's so strong, and offers so many lovely things, he always points me to Christ and tells me to read my bible.

I'm getting back into my bible reading.

It's his birthday next month, it is lovely. we hope to go back home for a bit.

I saw Carolyn the other day, she is doing well she's having baby number 2 soon.

It was lovely to be in prayer time, in the times it's hard to pray.

The lord answers every prayer, in his time.

Well the washing is nearly done, and I'll put my whites out on the line.
Lots of love.
Chloe