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Hi there,
How's things?
I haven't really got a subject to talk about today.
So that's why I have posted it untitled.
My friend are you feeling overwhelmed by things?
Are  you in a space right now, that all you want to do is hide and not see anyone?
Are fearing that you are in depression?
I thought about this, sometimes a bit too much.
You might think, that I am happy, and yes most of the time I am.
But I've been thinking about the things, that I've done.
And the friends that I've made, and I do have some pretty special friends, who are there for me.
My friend, said to me, the other day, that she made a list, on the people that are in her life, we all go through stages, and sometimes we might not have very many friends, we might have relied on someone to get us through, then all of sudden we don't hear from them.
Or we might just not like big groups of things, telling the same old things over and over and over.
And it got me thinking.
Why was it, that I liked my church, and the people that were in it, but now, I'm wondering if anyone really cared?
Now, you might think, oh help that's going deep.
But to me, it's a logical question.
Was it just a popular church and yes it is a big church, with large group of people, but now no one really know what I'm doing or how I'm going.
It's like I've never been.
Sometimes in life, we might make a commitment, we might be a member of a church, then suddenly feel like we just don't fit anymore, and I've had to come to the idea of it.
So what am I going to do?
Sometimes, we have to grieve and it's hard, because when you're already grieving for something, or a friend, it's so easy not to go there.
It's so easy to go another day, then the days turn into weeks and you haven't been.
It is also good to make good friends, at a church.
Something that I've learnt, is don't be too hasty to be involved or pushed into something that you might feel OK to do, but then that's all that is required of you, just because you've always done it, and it also guarantees you to do that thing to be involved. to make a commitment.
You end up loosing, the value of going, for your self and spiritual growth.
Know that it's OK to move on, to go somewhere that you feel comfortable in, in your own skin, at your own pace.
While I was at work today, I was annoyed at myself, because I've been there a year, and I should really know the cafe, and take on the cooking, but there's a new girl, and well lets say, that she's more experienced. in short orders,
The chef today, said, be good at your good thing and don't worry about the other person, and don't beat yourself up about it.
Because the more I was thinking about, '' not getting there'' the more I was thinking  ''man alive this is never going to happen.'' but if I do a few short orders and do them well, then I'll be cooking with gas, ( sorry for the pun) instead of stressing about it, long before it happens.
And he was right, i am a different chef, I am a breakfast chef, and people take photos of their breakfast, and I am a function chef, rarely do you get chefs who can do breakfast, cafe, functions and dinners all in one person, you normally  just get one person who is gifted in one particular order.
And I'm finding the more that I write down, the better I will become.
You know that God promises the impossible and turns what you might think of daunting and really really scary into manageable goals.
So my lovely friend, if you're feeling overwhelmed by the Christian life, or wondering if you will ever get there, you will.
Take care
Chloe