Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Hi there,
How are you getting on?
I hope that you're well.
I don't know about you, but I've had a good week.
I had a nice time with my best friend and her boyfriend, and we were talking about things.
And someone said, ''Goodness, you're amazing Chloe, whipping up a meal from nothing, I can't believe you've been snapped up.''
And sometimes, we feel let down, and sometimes we want to run back to our parents or someone safe, and just cry.
I'm not looking out for someone special, I'm not saying that I'm perfect, infact, I'm saying that I am struggling, with this thought.

I like cooking good food, and this year, might be the hardest year yet.
But I know that I can, face tomorrow. and I can face, what comes my way, I can trust in God, and he will bring me through times when I just want to scream.

And I know that sometimes we can't make it on our own, many times we think we can, if I just say that, or smile at the right times, or be witty, funny or childish, if only I can do that.

And you know what? Eve and Adam were the first people to believe it.
Passing down to us, passing on the baton.

And sometimes, things do sound too good to be true, and sometimes we get told, oh such and such said that, ''or yes do believe that'' I've had ''it's from God.''
What is from God?
My brokenness, my trails are they from God, only to produce perseverance?
My disability, is that from God?
And when I tell people, they don't believe me, they don't believe that I am 29 years old, and have something that they can not see?
Am I lying what I believe my self?
Am I just a good going church girl. that's another label that has, been place on me.

Sometimes, it takes time, to get it all in, and you know what, would I want to change? what could I change if I went back into the past?
Will my kids have the same struggle, will they struggle with a disability, will something be passed down because of my accident that happened?

Sometimes we don't understand accidents, and you know what? it's ok to struggle with that, and we're not here to struggle by ourselves.
We have a God, that knows every human way.

He knows that, he knows that I miss home, he knows my wants, and my needs, and when I was young, my needs were many.

We had our mothers and fathers, who brought us clothes, and cared for our needs.
We put so many things on ourselves, and when we need to let go, and let God heal us, we doubt.
I am one of those people, could God care for me, the same way he does when I'm away from home?
Could God stop me from judging others?
What about giving, could God help me with giving?
Sometimes we put God in a bubble, and we just see ourselves as a man made thing, not really living.

Everything has been made beautiful made in it's time.

Jesus is alive, he's alive in you, and he gives you the courage to do amazing things, and he loves you just the way you are.
 You don't have to get it all together, to come to church on Sundays, and have it all together.
So if there's anything you can take away from this. is that the one thing. is.
That you need to know 2 things.
1. You don't need to make it on your own.
2. God is able to take all your cares and needs, and heal you just where you are.