December

Hi there,
How are you?
I hope that you're good.
Today I want to talk you to you, about somethings that I've been going through, and perhaps you can relate or perhaps not.

Perhaps, you're just here, because you just need to be here.

I want to talk you you, about somethings that I've missed out in my own life.

I've been consecrating on the wrong things.

And I would like to get them out in the open, because it's healthy to do so.

If someone today asked you, as you look back on the year, and Christmas day, what's been happening, what have you been happy about? what has made you unhappy, what has been happening in your life, and you were brutally honest.

What would you say?


I'd say this, I've had highs and lows, I've had up and downs, I've had thought that every year, I'd meet ''the one'' and each year, I get excited.

We've done some pretty cool things, this year, I've seen 2 of my best friends get married, I've been close to my best friend, who found her husband online, I've felt the lonelyness of it, too.

We've opened up a gym that is going really well, and I am proud of my brother for having the fore sight into it, because he believes, in what he is doing.

I've seen my brother cover top stories for a majour news paper, I've seen my Dad's cricket team come out on top of the girls cricket team and be the best in new zealand.

I've made some choices on my own, that was moving away from what I knew and do further study, and move away from my friends, to futher my career.

I've been proud to put on my whites, and use my knives, I've made some really cool friends from overseas, where others might feel a bit lonely in including them, and make fun of them.

I've had some cool things happen at work, and some not so cool things happen.

I've broken down in tears, at times, because it got a bit too much.
I've had some amazing, results in written tests in exams.

I've invited everyone to my pitty party and no one came.

I've even wondered if I had bipolar.

I've felt total mess, and loss of things, and the only thing that has worked, has been fur.

So why do I go through these things?
Because it is life.

This is life, and it's hard, it's gritty, it's life, and sometimes, we are in the middle of some really tricky situations,and we just need to ride it out.

And yes sometiems it feels like we're swimming in a rip, and it's carrying us way out of the normal for us, perhaps we're going into the unknown, perhaps we are just giving people answers just to keep them queit.
Perhaps we're even thinking about ''buying our friendship.'' beacuse we just want someone around, or to stick or to stay.

Our parents and friends can only give advice, that is right for them.
It sounds mean,  but we are all different.

I work in hospo, because I believe I can cook, but I'm not going to work in a Michelin star restaurant.
I can bake, but I won't be working in a flash as french pastry shop.

I can look after animals and say I've got 4 certificates in animal care, but I am not a vet nurse, cause I couldn't put animals to sleep.

I've liked guys, but I won't say I'm a serial dater.

You might be in the middle of something, that looks grey, and lets be honest no one like grey areas, people might  have you hanging.

You might be in a seasonal job, where they might need you occasonally, but can't be given,  gurreenteed work hrs.

I don't know, but all I do know, is, that nothing is life, is wasted.

Nothing, is wasted, every thing you look at, be it jam on toast for breakfast, your coffee, your lunch, your dinner, your friends, your work, your study, you've done study, that has come up at the right time for you to do.

Your family, yeah some parts are ugly, some are tricky to navo.
but they are your family, and at the end of the day you do love them.

You stick at it because they are all that you have, and your friends, sure some might be anoying, but at the end of the day, they are the ones that would really give you a high five or a treat because hey they are your friends.

and you don't need to buy things just to keep them your friends.

Saying goodbye to the past, is hard, it's incredably hard, but it's the right thing to do.
So no matter what sort of year you've had, no matter what you're walking through right now.

God is right there, in person, walking you thruogh it, because he believes in you.

Chloe