Always time for tea.

No matter where you are or what you're doing.
There's always time for tea.
It might mean that you have to physically stop  and take stock.
You might think I am a contemplative person, and you might wonder why I write, or what I'm up to.
I am 33 years old girl, who drinks alot of tea and coffee.
I escape from the world and write.

And you might be thinking too, if anyone is out there, that can understand your point of view, why is it at times that we dispare and give up just before the dawn?

I am writing this from my heart, which is carefully on my knees praying all that the needs will be some how met.
I do believe in God I do believe that he hears us, though at times it feels like everything is crashing down upon us.
That we hear, all exciting news, about what our friends are doing, and you're like ''what about me?" it's easy to look at others, and have inner joy, for them, and we are called to celebrate with them.
but where is your heart?

I often ask myself now, where is my heart?
 is if given away?
it is carefully kept, ready for the right person?
I am not in dispirit, nor am I giving up.
why then do I wrestle with this?
 what is standing in my way blocking to the way, for my success?
what do I have to bless others?

Pride, that is what is stopping me.
my pride, of many things.
the ball always being in my court, ready for a rebounding bounce.
trust is a huge issue, who I can trust, who won't let me down but yet understand the reason why I am like this.

Escaping, is a big one.

How come I always feel like I'm on the run?

whom am I running from?

My dear friend Melanie, has brought me this book called praying for your future husband, dont' worry my single young men, you're not under threat.
but I am praying that one day, you will be found.

But the lord brought it to my attention, to why am I always running?

I have no idea why, to or what from. but I always feel like I'm on the run.
I just want to be settled, and stop running.

So I ask myself, now, what do I have in myself, to offer?
 what has the Lord blessed me in?
My parents, home, being able to open it up to whoever comes through, our garden, that offers so much love to other people.
Our baking and cooking tallents, to people who come and stay.
Support and love to friends and family.

I am struggling with something, and that bareness, while others are having children, it will take me another year, with a change of medication, to get it back to what it was like.

And that too ofters up prayers from the heart, to not always be like this.

No matter what you're going through at the moment, no matter if there is someone holding your hand, or not, weather there's a night light on or not, weather you're in the year of plenty, or the year of not much.

Be fruitful in every season, this, is a pruning season for me, so when the time comes, and the time will come, I believe in that, I will be fruitful, and one day, all my prayers will line up.
and be answered.
Chloe