August thoughts.

Hello team.

I hope that you're having a really nice time.

Lately I've been thinking and praying, but mostly thinking about how I can change my attitude.  I am getting to the point I spin out.

And what makes me spin out, ever feel like something is out of your control?

What pushes your buttons to react the way you do?

Or the way I do, and that is something I check daily.

Today everything went to plan, I am sticking to a plan in my work place you have to, because without a plan everything goes out the window, pretty fast.

So now I have a plan, and I am liking it.
But I got home after seeing my brother, and I noticed that someone opened up a gift of chocolate, and was offering them around.
Now I was saving this gift for someone at work, and I got annoyed, I also said bout other gifted chocolate, and how that is probably eaten up.

Chocolate in any house, doesn't' last that long, but I was annoyed that someone had decided to open up some chocolate and offer it around.
No big problem. you just buy a replacement.

Problem fixed, in fact it wasn't a problem, the person didn't know that it was a gift.

Work is starting to ask more of me as well, and I don't want to offer my second best, I want to offer them my first best.
I'm also putting on weight, as well that makes me un-happy.

 I'm going to do the 45 day challenge at the gym and hopefully shift this fat.

I just want peace to come to this place, and just rest.

I am also learning that it's not all about myself, it's about other people.

and there's a lot to learn, about how to learn that in a respectful way.

And to trust and really understand.


Check the signs, because if we don't we can be like my car at the moment, with no break pads, and make a noise and do further damage.

If we don't check in with how everyone is going, how are we suposed to know, what the other person is thinking.

Like the chocolate, if I left in the pantry, for everyone to use, then it would be opened up, but if I put it in my room, then everyone will know it's for someone.

And not to think to much into things, if a person is busy, then they are busy, they will get back to you, in their time.

You know one thing that I want to do this spring is to go down to the tulip fields down south and take photos, of the tulip bulbs, and just be in the moment.

And see some friends, and not to be tied to things so much.

Sometimes we feel like we're living like a balloon on a string, and we come with strings attached. it's time to cut those strings and live.

And call things into faith.

What do I mean by that?

Well if you have a strong urge to do something, and there is a reason why, you should do it, then do it.
and do it with love and mercy.

In my job, I don't know the names of the boys I feed, but I pray over the food I'm preparing. and it goes well with me.
 This is not a boast, nor do I want a badge  for it or a medal.
But just being generally nice to children and everyone is a good way to be.

Don't agree with the latest thing that is going around.
Nor tear down people behind their backs, they will see your falseness.

But cling to goodness and righteousness, and it will go with with you.

Honesty and trust will give you more than just flattering lips.

It will go with with you. and things will go to plan.

Right down things that you want to do, and do them, and go for them with all you have.
And let you yes be yes and you no be no.

It's more than ok, to move on, it is healthy for us, and to take off the blinkers and start to live life.
And to be thankful, being thankful for things, and not just respect it. But being thankful to that person who did your meal or provided for you at that time in your life when you needed it.

And get around people who make a difference in the world, those are rare gems. pack them on the journey with you.
Lots of love
Chloe