Good good father.

 Hello my friends.
How are you?
I hope that you're well and good.
I just want to encourage you this morning.

To pick up your bible and read it, to find hope in this time.

If we're just living and surviving, through the motions.

If things are going good, with you that's great, but be careful not to live by your emotions.

Rather put all our trust in the lord.

He is our first love.

I remember one day recently it was just yesterday, Andrei noticed me not taking deep breathes, We had just come through a rocky time.

And he squared my shoulders looked deep into my eyes and said "Honey, take 5 deep breaths in and out.'' I had become so wrapped up in what was going on, I forgot to breathe.

How many times have we forgot to breathe or carry the load ourselves?

Sometimes we think that taking up our cross should be a burden, and there therefore we don't always take it to the lord.

And lay down our troubles to the lord.

To learn to be content in these times.

Not basing it on how much we earn, or what will happen, after all we can't take money to heaven, we can't buy Christ love for us.

We can pray into things, hoping to move the thing by ourselves.

We burn ourselves out, but all is one thing is required, to be still and offer simple prayers to our lord.

Jesus in our Good good father.

He gives us the things when we need to it.

His timing is perfect.

We might go through really difficult things, some might not have been our choice.

But there is a lord, above who still cares, the sun still rises.

Suround yourselves with good friends, who are Godly, and councilors, who will help you.

Don't close up like a clam, in your own room, the walls will make you cost phobic.

There were some things coming out of a breakdown, I learnt, somethings are out of our control. Forgive yourself, forgive others.

And get out and let the lord do the work in you. I had the lord, bring somethings to me attention.

Our garden that needed lots of work, and my horse Chantelle, some me time.

We all need Me time, to heal and restore.

I had dear Mary my psychologist who got my wings back along with bible reading and journaling.

It doesn't mean tht I will take  nose dive.

It doesn't mean I will be fine, that my pride gets in the way, but I have a loving God, who will always be with me.

He gave me Andrei, who notices when I take on mentally too much, I close up inside.

He knows, the red flags, the times I cried into him because it was too much.

His arms around me making me safe, the notes he leaves gives me hope.

He wants to go home, to see my parents, he one day wants to care for them.

My mum told me not to come back, if we keep going out.

But I know that she has her own issues to work through.

I've again cried to andrei,

Early on in our relationship knew how hard my mum can be.

There's no filter, and says things bluntly.

I can get on with my dad, mum doesn't say things in the back ground.

My home is lovely with it's garden, but if we are to come back, we might have to talk.

I'm with Andrei and his parents now.

They don't complain, they don't keep score.

But in all this we thank you lord.

Lots of love .
Chloe