Are you reminded of your past?

Today i want to talk to you, today about what hope is.
I have found this verse in the bible, about hope in God.
Because sometimes we can loose the hope, sometimes we can feel like we're just on the brink of a very dark place, perhaps it's a cliff.
Perhaps you've been dreaming about things in your past, or the things that people have done to you, and you can shake it off, no matter how much you want to forget, suddenly by no out of the blue it's the first thing that comes to your mind.
Are you in that place?

Today I have learn so much in just a few verses.
And these are the verses that helps me in so many ways.

God loves you, now that for some reason for people might be hard to understand, because maybe you've trusted someone and they did something to you, or that you thought that person loved you, but for some reason something has gone wrong.
The most popular question to ask Google, is how to end my life.
And I was that person, out of nowhere I felt useless, unloved and lied to.
I began to believe in those lies, and it took a good 4-5 years of daily prayer for me to pray to ask God to show him that he loves me, to ask him on my parents behalf to tell, them I need them.
No one knew, anything I prayed for, I wanted God to know.
And I did try, to my shame  I tried to end it sometimes.
It took along, time for me to see that wasn't from the Lord, in fact it was from the devil, and these thoughts were months not just ''bad days''.
I had a good friend who died, in a very sad way.
It was impacting because she was a Christian, and well aren't Christians perfect?
We are in mortal bodies, we still sin.
I sin, I continually sin, I sin every day. I get angry when I am blamed for things, I am so angry, because somehow my day started out well, but because I can't change a person, I'm working with, makes it harder, it makes it harder to express Grace.
What is Grace?
Is Grace just turning the other cheek and being the door  Matt for people to come and leave their ''foot mark.'' on us?
No, not by a long shot, in fact, Jesus in his time, said to use our voice so much just to reach out to one person, just one person to make that person feel better.
Do it.
That is what changed me, out of my very dark place, I prayed through it, it was hard, because the voice of God, what very hard to hear at times, but I reached out to God, I told him everything.
i even wrote letters explaining, that I didn't want my parent to feel guilty about the choice I was going to make.
I saw it, for what it was, and no matter if you get insulted every day, or abused or what ever, you don't know what the person did in his or her path, no matter if that person is bitter, about something that happened, or just didn't chose to forgive when the chance was there.
And they might see you are a slamming block, people will be amazed about what you've stood through.

It is so easy to be angry, I was angry at God that my friend died,
God doesn't want any of his kids, under any sense of false guilt or shame or rule.
God wants us to be free from all condemnation.
 It says in 1st Chronicles, 29:12.

'' Wealth and honor come from you, you are the ruler of all things, in your hands are strength and power  to exalt  and give strength to all.
Now our God, we give you thanks, and praise your glorious name.''

That was prayer,  and a praise from the Israelites thanking God for his building, the temple.

This temple, was a dream from David, to build, this was the temple that the Israelites longed for a long time.
However, God told David, that he spill to much blood, during his life.
His son Solomon, the wisest king of all the earth built.
He didn't even go to war.

God knows the things you're going through, it might be that dream you're sure that God has given you, it might be that fight you can't seem to find the strength to fight on you own.
It might have been anger, no matter what sort of anger it is, it might effect on how you care for others.
It might be time to stare it right in the face, and when you know that time is coming, it's scary, but also liberating.

this is my prayer, and prayer is important.

''Father God,
You know the plans you have for me, lord that they are good plans, and in your hands are scars, but God you don't just have one hand, you have two hands.
We might have experienced something Lord, that  is shameful, that might have made us angry.
Lord we might have turned away the chance to forgive and we didn't take it because we were hurt.
Lord we hold all this up to you, Lord, and we place all the cares that we have on you.
Don't give up on us, don't forget us.
It says in your word that you give those your strength, Lord, for people who can't fight humanly, Lord, this is especially for them Lord, give them mental rest and spiritual rest.
Lord you have the power to do all these things.
We trust in you and we love you.
Lord please show who you are for the people who might not know or have known but haven't taken the first step back to you.
Lord heal those who won't and can't give up hope, Lord be their source, keep that oil of gladness for the spirit of heavyness.
In Jesus name.
i pray, amen.''