struggling to find peace?

Hi there,
How's it all going?
Are you finding it hard to stay in the fight?
Are you wondering if anything is going to change?
Have you slipped again?
My friend, if you are in that space and you're clutching to things that you can't give up.
And you just don't want to get up in the morning.
My friend, I feel for you, because you're probably fighting to find peace.
I'm not hear to say that everything is going to work out for the best.
I'm not going to put my spin on it, i'm not going to always check up on how you're getting on.
Because more often than not it doesn't help.
It can make maters worse, it can acutaly make you feel worse.
God doesn't expect us to, have it all together.
It's not about surrendering to him and doing his will, when everything around us might turn to custard, he understands.
When people pul the punches, and say things about us that are wrong, or your missing that good time, and now you're having not such a good time, or your missing the life you've once had.
God is there.
Other people, might want to get on your nerves, they might want to see you break, they might break your will.
My Dad always said if you're having a hard time think about someone who is going through a hard time. I really didn't want to hear that once. but it does help.
I think about all those people who have dissabilties, on the inside, not on the outside, and I wonder how they are getting on, I think about my friends who are different, and everyone thinking about them, they are normal people.
We can't always be perfect, we can't strive to fix the gaps in our own lives.
In my life I look back on the the times I've struggled to find peace, and it hasn't been that easy.
 There haven't been posts in my life, where I've seen God in person, but in the steady plod of daily life.
And if you're walking through the most hardest time of your life. perhaps you've discovered that you've got some test results, back from the doctor, perhaps you might get better, perhaps it's not the brightest outlook, perhaps you've been judged by your work, or how you might look.
Perhaps you haven't said the brightest of things but you've got, spirit, and you've got the will to fight and to find peace.
My friend if you're wondering if you're alone in the the world, and you're wondering why people judge you. They don't know the cost it has on your life, to get to where you are.
Don't look over your shoulder, wondering how you're getting on in their score books.
Just keep at the task at hand.
If God calls you to get the vunnerable off the streets, or go into the mission field, you know you can do it because you're God's calls you to act.
You can sing when you're winning, because you're on the winning team.
Chloe