when you're up against it

Hi there.
Well it's been a long time since I've written, and since then I have moved out of home and living in invercargil, which is still a city that surprises me.

I want to talk to you today, about being strong, and standing up against the wind.
Something that is really hard to do sometimes, especially when you're in the middle of it all. But we know that we are strong, stronger than we think we are, or even care, and even having a good mind about the outcome.

And that means heaps to people, people like to know you care, that your not just another person. Treat everyone with respect, and love because as someone told me recently, when you give out you receive double,even though you might not like where you are at the moment, even though you want to be strong through it all, you are. and people look out for you, they really do.

One thing is, that today is a different day that yesterday, and today will be different for tomorrow, and you will have an amazing day today.
Sometimes, we can't always make sense of our lives, and sometimes, we love the ones that hurt the most.
For me, I want to run around try to fix people, but sometimes we can't always do that. sometimes we need to leave them alone for while, or else we smother them, and we're just another voice, another banging gong, rather, than holding back, and waiting, to see what they think.
Sure sometimes, in life, we get these people and we feel smothered, we feel dictated, we freeze up, and we make plans, we aren't flexible.

And sometimes, we get the opposite, sometimes, we get these people, in life, that force themselves on us, and we didn't want that either.

Victim it's an interesting word, we can blame it on our families, even if we come from a good one, or relationships. there's nothing wrong on getting excited, there's nothing wrong with that.

We shouldn't force ourselves into things, and let the other person speak.

What do I know about love?
Well not much but I'm willing to learn, love for me, isn't just bodidly desires, it's not pretty people, or dresses, or trying to please,  conversation should flow easily, and not awkardly.

I am 30 years old, I know some people think I should have gone around the block, a few times, seen what's out there.

But recently I'm scared of all people, simply because I went through a scary time, recently, and men really scare me. it was a case of someone trying to fit in, and forgot that it was actual sexual harassment, and yes, did get threated with rape and murder.

The only person I could actually trust was ''Mr View sonic, eyes.''

I mean that in a good way, who ever is reading this.

We need to bring things into the light, and get them out in the open, and I realize that not all men are scary, there's a lot of good guys out there.

And guys thanks so much for looking out for the girls.

Because what might seem harmless, might really be dangerous, that's why the #metoo movement is so strong, cause, when girls hear things, we know it's not right.


It  plays on our mind, like a tape stuck on rewind.

But we've parked this issue, and we have it sorted.

Time to move on and enjoy life, you can't stand in the way of progress.

And we all need to move  forward  don't we?

Well that's my thoughts for today, time to close down the computer, and head outside for a great day in the garden.