where do you go when you ''have an emergency''

Hi there friends.
How's your day going?
I hope that you're good.
What's been happening with you?
Recently I was talking to my friend, Melaine, and we were just talking, it was lovely. because we are extremely close.

I'm a pretty confusing indivaial, if something isn't working, I'd just want to go back to dunedin. rather than grow through the expereince.

I was making myself a cup of tea, thinking about the week ahead, and the ''wilderness'' experience.  and you know, what happens?
When we give up?
We give up on ourselves, the why questions, come.

Why can I be like that chef, who knows how to do things, why can't I be like my younger brother writing?
Or my older brother who owns a gym, what about me?

Why can't I get my wheels to start again?

I remember texting my friend, saying'' I'm giving up, I'm throwing it all in, and are you awake?"

Clearly nothing was going well,  he told me never to give up, to keep praying, to keep learning.'' and of course he was right.

I was wanting to keep running in the long run.

Around the mountain we go.

You know what happened when the Israelites, did that?
They missed out on their potential, you know they wanted to throw in the towel.

They wanted their own pitty party, they would see how good the land was, but, was blinded by, the things that, were unadiquate.

They let that be their goal, and not the price.

See we need grit in ourselves, we need to be sharpened, by the things that need to go, in our own weaknesses.

 We give up, we throw in the towel long before we see the benifits.

We'll always be targeted by things that is life, it's not always sunny.

But after the clouds, the sun comes out, and we can get going again.

And sometimes we need to get out of toxic envorments, they limit us in what we are called to do, because they are always taling about what that person should be doing, or believing, in that person.

And if you're thinking can you not be good at anything?

You know, think of the people that you support, yah?

You are working behind the scenes, to help that child over in Africa, to go to school to live a life with no poventy, who loves you and wants to know how you are, because you've given life to them.

you might not be the next Bill gates, and when we go through trauma, we dream about the perfect life, the famous, the ''I want to bes''

And when you want the best for people, people want that.
And you make your enemies, jealous.

Because why?
You are successful in small things.

Don't give up half way, don't just walk half way, through the promise land and just stop. Keep going.
Chloe