Nothing is wasted.

Hi there,
How are you?
I hope that you're having a really awesome day.

Today as I opened the curtains, I looked out on the window out on my pocked sized handkerchief.

My spring bulbs are coming up, and I noticed, lichen on my flowering chest nut tree, and rain drops hanging like diamonds on the brown spear  buds on the end of the branches.
It all looked so pretty, before the sun came up. the  drops will fall on the ground, watering the bulbs below.
The mossy lichen,will continue to grow  on the ancient, tree.
It's only when you take the time to actually pause and stop, that you take note on the beautiful things that the lord has given us.
He has been so kind to us.
and what have we done?
We've poked fun at others, ripping them down, because of the tall poppy syndrome.
Sadly, I am a culprit of it.
The day is brightening up a bit. and I'll be off on my walk soon.
I'm getting off topic.
I am using my certificate in baking and working in a bakery, I really enjoy the interaction of it, I miss the little place sometimes.
I'm sewing as well, I'm making bags, and that is a great pass time.
Nothing in life is wasted, everything makes sense, it will you might be at a point in your life, where you're wondering will I be stuck out in this wilderness, forever? will I get past this mountain in my life?
Well dear friend, pleased to say it.
You will face your fears, you will get better in your job, you'll  know that you're capable of doing, and you can do it.
I had a time in my new job, where  I felt that this was just going to beat me, and I was never going to get my break through, then one day last week I woke up, and I just felt different ,because I wrote all my fears down, and  I looked them straight in the face, Dad spoke to the mountain of fear, and it left.
My friend that is what you need to do, if you feel like you're at the foot of the mountain like I was.
I thought this thing was never going to move, I was never going make my mark, and get better at my job.
I'm slowly learning new things, and I do them faster, than the day before. I've also gone part time, so I can, enjoy my job better.
When I was in hospital, one of the things we had to do, was to have an exit plan.
a plan for getting better.
I had many of these plans, in my head, I wrote down a lot of them.
and came up with a perfect plan.
I was told that I could get work as early as 2 weeks after my breakdown, but felt that this was too soon, so I waited, and waited, I didn't want to go back to my current job, so I looked for work, in my bakery, profession.
and found one at a supermarket, one that is nice to work in, and people are really helpful, understanding, and friendly.
I'm doing everything on my plan, even a few extra things.
my days off are precious, I know that now.
I love the late winter sunshine coming in now, after a weekend of rain.
I was thinking before my breakdown, that things are wasted, why have I put all this money into qualifications, and not seeing the benefits of it. to say the least I was, at breaking point, I was angry.
But fully believed, in doing a good job, at the bakery.
I'm now loving the products I put out, I can see points of change.
I like the hard work, and being humanly tired and not having my head feeling heavy and full.
My friend, if you are striving, and not getting anywhere, please stop, now, write down what it is, and look it straight in the face of God, burn the bridges that need to be burned, and start to make other bridges.
Take time to enjoy yourself, not hide away in a dark corner.
Chloe