HI there,
How are you?
I hope that you're having a nice day.
Perhaps you've had a good morning, and you're just sitting down relaxing with a cup of tea in the sunshine.
As I look back on the year, and look forward to next year. I step back, and I think. I do a lot of thinking durring the day, sometimes I do over think.
How many people, do that I wonder?
Have you just stopped, and are you looking after yourself?
Perhaps it's alowing yourself to not get so up tight about things.
Take notice of those small things, because if you don't they will get bigger.
I came home from work, the other day, and my brother sam, said something that I hadn't noticed, and he asked me why do things get to me?
in a carying way?
Why am I so fustrated, at person A, and all the carry on, I thought I left it in the past, but I am still carrying stuff that isn't mine to carry.
so it got me thinking of todays post.
Are you carrying something that isn't suposed to be yours?
Are you wearing ''lost property,'' that wasn't yours to begin with?
What do I mean by that?
I talked things over with someone who I trusted in the hospital sector, the other week, and I have to say, for the first time he told me to slow down!
I keep saying yes to people, and think later.
I'm a go getter, I dont like having heaps of time on my hands, i just feel like if you have a day off, well you should enjoy it, by doing something.
even our holidays had itineraries, call us from the Vontrap family, but not me.
And this very wise person, said to slow down and really think about what you're doing, you don't have to do everything,
I have to say, that is very good advice, I've walked away from a relationship, that was highly needy, and very stressful. I wasn't in a place myself to fix that siutation.
It was making me sick.
And relationships are like that, toxic ones, you can get really wrapped up in it, so much so that person is depending on you to ''get them through'' I had to walk away, I couldn't do it anymore. if the person was going to do it, well there are trained people to help her, I couldn't do anymore than that.
I was wearing lost property that wasn't mine.
And alot of us, can go through life, wearing stuff, that we ''put up with'' because it's all that we have known.
My friend, it's time to shed a few layers. and let yourself be free from all of that.
Yes we have places that we hide, and things that we do, to make sure our ''walls stay up'' and don't let everything get to you, it's ok to not be ok.
Faking it to you make it, doesn't work, it only makes you go on a downwards spiral.
How do I know?
I know I've been there, and it's not the best place to be.
If you asked how I am now, I would say I'm getting better.
And those small ideas, that you have act on them, and write them down, they are given to you, because no one else has thought of them.
There is always time to, learn new things, don't think for a minute that you are to old, to learn new things, there is always time to pick up new things.
Life always moving forward, I was at the beach before this post, and I was watching the waves come, and they were so clear, and it was early morning and the sunshine was just amazing, on the water, it was only me, waiting for my friends.
just me and the lord, and it was as if on a stormy day like yesterday, the water would have been all rough, but this morning it was smooth, and clear, and it's after the storm and the weather in our life clears up, we can see things for what they are.
Information gets miss understood, and we take it all out of proportion and something so small goes into this big as thing, when did it start?
it started with getting the wrong end of the stick.
Learn this, it's not as bad as it seems, and everything works out in the end.
We also need boundries, for ourselves. we are not a taxi service for our friends.
it's ok to go back and change your mind, if things don't work, or your heart isn't it.
We all have the best intentions, and we try really hard to keep those, but if for whatever reason, we can't we go back on them.
To obey is better than sacrifice,
In my old job, I was sacrifcing, every Christmas, to work, and the shine wore off, and it just wasn't me anymore. so I changed jobs, why?
plain and simple, I wanted better hrs to work part time, and steady hours.
and a christmas off, fair you mind think its crazy, but after working for 6 christmases, fair enough you might say.
and so I picked a supermarket.
Nothing against, my old work place I loved it, but I am getting older, so I thought that it was time for a change. and go with the changes.
you don't always have to be on top of everything, just plodding away is fine.
Some of us are built for plodding and long distance, rather than a sprinter, short fast, get it done sort of thing.
This I have learnt on my friends horse farm.
she has many horses, to ride for different people, she even has a an ex racer.
my horse that I ride is a plodder, a well schooled horse, that gets the job done. now if I was on James the racer horse,I would think like everything is short sharp and quick,, but james wasn't on the track for long he was built to race, but the track wasn't for him.
you might say, '' but he's a race horse all sport horses are racers or endurance riders'' James got to concerend about the track that he was best out of it.
and sometimes that is us, the ''track'' in our lives, isn't the best one to be on, it's only once we're off the track we grow to be the real person that we are.
That's me for today.
Chloe
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