Hello there my friends.
How are you?
I hope that you're good and happy.
I've been thinking a lot about commitments and how comitted we really are.
I've also been hanging out with a lovely friend of mine, and we made about 80 Chinese dumplings, together from scratch. Making the dumpling dough, and filling. these ones are pork and prawn with cabbage.
I've also wrote a letter to my Gracie, my sponsored child I write to once every 2 weeks.
I'm also on the hunt to sponsor a boy, from El Salvador.
I have also begun therapy for myself, as well. so facing the past, getting that over, and moving on.
I have also made brownie today, and will freeze a bit, for my brother Matthew, who is still up in Auckland, seeing his friends, as he went up there for a job interview, but now looks like he'll be home. which will be good.
I can give him his ginger bread man, and some brownie I will freeze for him and some of my 80 dumplings, that I made today.
I have also booked in a horse riding lesson, back at my old riding school, I'll be Chontelle, or Wilson. but that's not until the 3rd of next month.
I am also away, next weekend at my best friends Baby shower.
I'm also starting to plan a bit more, for the boys at the school and what they like and don't like, and what to make for them.
Once a week, I'm making soup and scones for them. for morning tea, I do it for the teachers, but now the boys are getting some as well.
they love hot soup on cold days, and it makes me happy to see boys happy.
They will eat anything, that is going which I'm happy about.
The staff are what I call ''Putting in their orders, for morning teas.'' they do pay for it, and I do like to keep them happy, it's apparently the high light of their day, is morning tea, and what are they getting.
The school is using me, for to a bit of in house catering as well.
So this week the staff will be getting, corn chowder, and small seafood pies. I am wanting to make them like the Fairlie, with their sea food pies.
with thickner of potatoes in them, shrimp and smoked salmon and a bit of fennel would be nice.
I'm always thinking of the princepal, and I think not that it puts the fear of God in me, but I think help he's brave eating my stuff. There's also 2 very foodie up with the play teachers in there as well, so I need to be in with the right mix.
I'm finding that I am asking lots more questions in the day, what can I improve on and it's listening and doing, cleaning and multitasking all at once.
Along with making sure the boys get enough.
so it might sound a lot, but I throughly enjoy what I do, and each time somone asks if I'm enjoying, I can now say I'm in my ellement.
I can research my things, and go for it.
I am wanting the boys to have lava cakes, which is a bakels packet mix, but I think that the boys would love them.
I know if I was a kid, I'd love lava cake thursday, so far it's muffin friday, as one boy requested muffins, so I've made banana choc chip, and blueberry choc chip muffins, I'm wanting to make a orange choc chip, with real oranges.
Again sticking to the no banana rule, but I thought, that it would be something that their mothers would have made.
The boys like anything Lemony, and tangy, so I'm trying to steer away from the chocolate, although the first thing I will be baking tomorrow will be the famous mud cake recipe.
So when I bake, I think of the kids I'm sponsoring, and I think of dear Gracie, and I wonder if she's happy, as I wish you could see a photo of her, she's the sweetest little girl ever.
I would love to go over and visit her one day.
Grace is too small to write the letters so her mum writes them for her.
I'd love to know where abouts in Indonesia she lives and go over. perhaps thats something I can work on.
In the summer holidays, which are the longest holidays.
I am fortunate to have a job where I do get holidays, that's why I went to work at a school, and next weekend, I am free and on holiday.
Which I plan to plan out my book, a bit more. and stick to it.
So that's really about it, I am learning through my therapy, that everything is ok, and will be ok. and processing our thoughts, one thing is, I am a fast reacter, always has been. and I don't often slow down and think things through.
If I was a horse I would be a sport horse, rather than a station hack. Matt would be a pacer, and I would be a galloper.
Reply now, and wait later, that's me.
it's how I'm wired. which has it's ups and downs, and it's fustrations. because I am always feeling like I'm wearing blinkers, and missing things in life, because I'm galloping away thinking to get to the next thing as fast as I can.
Which is why I'm going to therapy, to control this, and process it's ok to slow down.
The horse has already bolted and I'm away with it. trying to bring it under control.
Some people might think it's over compensating making up for lost time, but when your in the thick of it, you don't have a time to think.
you just go in this bolting horse and hold on.
It also has it's down falls, because, you often miss the details in life, because you are so task orreitnated, to get to the next thing, you miss the vital signs.
One of my vital signs, are working with horses, because that is when you have a horse, that you work with, and it's in tune with you, you can't be in another space, it's just you and the horse.
It's always waiting for your next command. it's in no hurry to get to the next thing as it's taking a leaf out of your book.
You need to know yourself, before you work with horses, they bring out the best in you. when you see rider and horse working together it's an art, and it's beautiful.
There's just something about horses, that makes me fully relax.
it doesn't matter if it's a horse that has just come out of the track, or it's the sweet Chontelle, who is an angel. no horse is similar.
they all have their qurks, and that is what I love about them.
I set myself a goal to horse ride, as I've never done it, but I now know a little, more, each time I ride, and ask the horse to do something. when you work as team together, you really are a team, and you trust that horse, and you trust yourself.
That your horse always has your back.
It has done a lot for me over the year, to go riding. I have been in places, where I wasn't happy, that jobs were just jobs, or jobs haven't been right.
But never look back always forwards, and think that was then this is now.
I am in a job where people depend and trust me to know what I'm doing.
I don't always get feed back on my baking, but I get pleasure of doing it.
It's when you serve people, and you find it effortless to do so, you are in the right job.
And surround yourself with good people, don't surround yourself with just ''takers'' because they will let your goodness for granted, and it hurts the heart of God, to just be focused on yourself all the time.
Jesus came for the lost, for the people least of us, for us, because he saw that we need salvation.
So no matter if we're in the storms of life or at a cross roads, we know, that we have the will of God in our lives.
That our struggles for ourselves are real, my struggle for me is real every day, I think man I'd love to be that or do that, or be married. But for me now, right now, it's to know the will of God, go after it for all we have, and be in him, beacause if we are outside of him, we are like the tossing of the waves we don't know our own mind, we're here there and everywhere, and we don't know ourselves.
God knows, and he knows, what we can take, and can't take.
That's me for today.
Chloe
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