Coming clean.

Hello dear friends,

How are you?
I have had a good day at work, everything went to plan, and I left early.
I like to have a plan, and not be there to much over time.
Tonight they are feeding part of dad's school, St Hida's for dinner, so it's all on.

It's not a competition,but we strive to do the best we can.

So now I'm listening to my favourite  speaker, which I thing will help cleanse my mind.

I don't know about you, but we all work people, who are different to me.

And I'll share with you one comment, when we talking around the brunch table.

We were talking about children, and where we come in the pecking order, I said that I'm in the middle, and quite proud of my brothers, both are quite successful.

And without batting an eye lid, someone once said, ''oh the middle child is often forgotten about.'' the forgotten child.''

I had to just bite my tongue, and just look down at my empty plate.

I had  had enough about in a sarcastic way, of ''being special'' and this was it.
I mentally thought that we're in a battle here.

Now that person, might not know the offense, I have learn my lesson on not being a tattle tattler, because that does more harm that good.

I put on my armor of God, and battled.

I am thankful for the person  who helps me, but little by little, I thought help whatever I have in my life I have to guard it.

And not to be so friendly, and just be careful.

It takes only 5 seconds for someone, to make impression of you.

Clearly this person thought I was ''special'' but not in a way I think I'm special.

I am starting my psychology appointments soon, this is new for me.
so that I can process things and move on for the better.

When I came out of hospital, I had to have a wellness plan, it impressed me, that I'm still doing things that I wanted to do.
somethings I haven't done.

Somethings, the lock down stopped for a while but I got back on the horse physically.  and it felt so good.

I really recommend if you suffer from anything  get out on a horse, and ride.

I am nothing without a horse, there is something that goes on between rider, and horse when you start to work.

And next time I'm called ''specail.'' I will think of Wilson or Chantalle, the horses  I ride, and I think yes I am special on a horse.

So whatever you're doing or going. you might think you're going backwards, but today as I dropped my friend up at the place where she works, as she started work today, at the hospital I was in for 2 weeks. I felt strange sense of peace.
As we walked passed the entrance, I prayed for the people in there.
I did think about going in to visit the nurses, but I felt as though God has closed the doors, and that was a point of me moving on.

So no matter if you're having doors, slightly open, closed, or partly open.

May I just say a word of wisdom, guard whatever you have, with your heart and head.
Because what you have, is very special, like a rare jewel inside of you.

That you are always watched by Jesus not in a creepy way, but in a way that will challenge you, and accept you for who you are.

See when a jeweler finds a precious jewel, he puts it on black velvet so that the lights in his shop, can catch the light of the jewel, and the true worth is seen.

That might be you, you might be on ''show'' all the time, people, children, everything you do, is seen and measured.

It is tiring, to be on show, but if we do it for the right reasons everything is going to plan.
Lots of love
Chloe