burn the ships.

Hello, how's it going?
I hope that you're going well.
I've been thinking about, somethings lately.
I hope that you're enjoying the afternoon.
Today, we had my brother around and we played a game of settlers.

Perhaps you're in a cosey corner, with a cup of tea, on a well deserved break.

I want to talk about "burning the ships." you might wonder how did I settle on the name for this post?

Well it comes from, a song from king and country, ''burn the ships.'' in it, they sing about not looking back. and they share the story of a man, and his army, going fourth to explore new land, upon this, the commander of the army, commanding his admirals, to burn the ships very literately so that they could not go back.

You might think that is very drastic, and extreme, and perhaps it is. perhaps you've got things in your life,  and you're on that boat, and you are thinking about ''burning the ships'' perhaps you're making choices that aren't the wisest. perhaps you've got further study to do, and if someone takes that spot, will you regret it?

Hope is always rising.

It might not look like much, but wait a little and watch the flicker your flicker that you've got, and watch it turn into a blaze.

Even if you think you're finished, you're not by a long shot.

It is all easy when life is going well, which is great, we all need life to go well for us, but what about those blue days?
those days when you're reminded that it's not over, that maybe you're optimistic perhaps, and perhaps you've taken a nose dive down?

And you don't know, if you can find your way back up.

As you go deeper down, and you look up and you find that you're drowning, in your need to be loved.

And not just friends on face book or polite conversations. but actual friends, who care.

Is something inside of you begging to be free?
Are you going to burn the ships or keep them close part of your safety go back plan.

Love alone is worth the fight.

what if, that love has gone?
What happens to others who move on, and you've stayed behind because of safety?
Are you afraid of trust?
Are you afraid of getting hurt again?

In my time in hospital, I was greatly aware of the need, of people, who are there to get well, if someone came up to me, now, and said ''Chloe, you're oging to have a break down, it will take a year to get better, you're here for 14 days.'' I'd probably tell you to quickly hop it.

I have help, but everytime I fall down, I fall hard, and reminded of what I've gone through.

I don't want to be reminded of what I've gone through, but sometimes we need to see, it for what it is.

Watching my family go through this, was hard, really hard, because you're away from home, and things are wiped from your mind.
I had to get back fast, I wanted to be on track, and I had simply fallen off them. this wasn't the plan, this was plan z in my plan.

Fortunately, the brain is a sponge, it recovers fast, and you're not locked up for weeks on end.

like the old days.

Thank God for that.

I'm not wanting to glorify of what I've gone through, I've got my own ships to burn.

And out of the ashes, comes the most amazing growing things.
I am still myself to this day,  nothing has changed, but my outlook for others.  I'm more patient now, before I got really impatient I wanted everything now.

I held everything up, I was proud of what others were doing but not me. and I am proud now, about the things I've done.

So I've burnt my ships,along the way, I needed to, I needed to close the doors to the past, I was living in the past.
I'm living in the now, now.
Chloe