Knowing your boundries.

Hello there,
I hope that you're having a nice day.
It's been wet and rainy, here for a week.
I haven't been able to do my horse ridding, or any thing particularly much due to the wet.

Freddy loves being out in the rain, he comes in, all wanting to be hugged, and it's like hugging a wet mop.
he comes in drenched.

We have just got a new mayor, which will be exciting, taking the city forward.

We all need boundaries, we all need to be in a position not to over commit, ourselves, we can easily burn out, and therefor get into a part in life, when we can think of throwing in the towel.

It has become to easy to think that was now, we think because we have the Internet, that life is made more simple, but it can also make us more over committed, to life.

So what do we do if we are stuck in a bind and we think that there's no way forward?

Do we tell people are stuck, or do we find it hard to come to the realisation, that we need a higher purpose in life?

Before my breakdown, I was somewhat unhappy upet all the time, always thinking people are at me, and if they aren't at me, they will be, I was taking far to much on.

My brain got to the point, where it had simply had enough.

What am I like now?

I am content in life, I am free from alot of things that I Needed to step back, and let go, I was holding far to much on.

I was living my life through facebook, and not having real friends.

Sure being is hospital, where things are taken away, I was running around outside looking for any way to escape, i was like a freightend  Mare, just pertried at very thing.

My head was like an uncoiled spring, bound up then suddenly let go.
it wasn't till I faced my fears straight on, that everything will be ok.

And if people judge let them, but don't let people get to you.

sure things get to me, all the time, but they aren't half as bad.

I'm not in control of things now as I once were.

What caused my break down?
No one knows, but only God.

It was the best experience I've ever had,I have a new brain, and a new mind, and that is a promise in the bible, fulfilled to me, by God.

I now have a planner which I use weekly, I am not in contact with people who drain me, and if I want to know how they are going, they are my friends.

Coming out the other side of this I could go about it 2 ways.
I could go down the bitter path, or or I could go down the path, that is new, exciting,  and different.

I am in a percentage, of New Zealanders, that have had one of these things happen, and it was a good breakdown, it wasn't scary, it was a reverlation from God, that I was going to be ok, right through it.

Others, find it hard to ajust to things, even keeping appointments, keep doing the same things, I had 2 weeks off the gym ( my down stage,) which the doctors said I would go through, it might be a year, but it was only 2 weeks, which I'm so thankful to God.

Some people, have terrible psychotic breakdowns. ( which is what I had.)
My one was a blessing, I was able to see what it was come to terms with it, not be upset, but be free.

My parents have learnt to trust me, which is hard for them, that it won't happen again.
 will it happen again?
 who knows but only God.

So if you're in a place, or space, where you're wondering where are you at the moment, if every little thing ticks you off, if you're crying more often, but don't know what my friend, if life is a bit to much, seek help.
easy to say, now, harder to do back then, I wasn't in a good space truthfully.
but I am now, I so am now.
Chloe