October thoughts.

HI there team,
How's it all going?
I hope that you're going well.
The rain has stopped,  making the air smelling lovely and sweet.

I was reading a story, that my brother Matt wrote about refugees, and the change it has taken from 30 years back.

It was inspring, and thought provoking, I have posted it on my facebook page.

And as I was waiting at the road works, today, it was thinking about my own life, as I was making my porridge. I have 2 brothers, and they have both traveled the world, and lived in different places.
I've always stuck close to home, moving away sometimes to follow some study.

We are all different to each other, Sam is very much into business, and runs a very successful gym. Matt is a journalist for Stuff.co.nz in the head office there.

And here is me, working as a baker, and enjoying my days off, filling it up with meeting people, and horse ridding.

My thoughts today, aren't based on anything particularly, just that it is important to take stock of what you're doing and where you're heading.

Making good, out of life, and taking a step back, and knowing that people are going to always be there for you, no matter what or where.

I do want to talk about something though, and that is, upon my scrolling on my facebook page, it is important to be careful about what we post, or put up, whatwe put into each other is what we put out,into others, not just what we use, or how we use it, but just be careful, because people do judge, and if they keep seeing the same things up, well what does that make you out to be?

If you're always talking about Sex, or ending life, or extremes, or whatever, you're putting yourself out to be extremely vulnerable, and we're born to connect, not just face to face, but through other ways, and if we're just hanging out for this or that, thinking it will ''satisfy, the thing, we're after, well does it really do that?"

Recently I had enough of something, and I just blocked this person, because I wasn't in the cappastiy to help, or was I called to be a rebounding board, and this went on for 4 years.

I was a mental wreck, I was so worn out, I just was at a loss everytime, I'd see this person, and in the end I had to walk away, and just get on with my own life.

You might think ''how selfish,'' you just can't do that.

My friend, we have times when we acutally have to do that, because it's not what God has called us to do, to be like basketball rebounding boards always taking knocks for the person.

But being kind, isn't always going to help that person, it might just be taking a step back, and that way it is being kind, Grace that is only from God to help and heal them, Us by ourselves can't do that.
We can't mentally, phsically, give that person, what they need.

They need to be in a space themselves, that triggers, a light. and in the mean time they are in the dark.

We're not suposed to be living in the dark, if you think about your own day, what does it consists of?

My day goes like this:

I wake up, and look at my planner, and go to the gym ( if it's tuesdays, I meet up with my sister in law,) and we have coffee, after the gym.
It is also horse ridding day, if the weather is nice, it's also time to meet up with mum and keep my commitments to her.

so most days I go to the gym, to work out, both mentally and pyshinly, I don't commit to things I can't commit to.


So Monday to Wednesday, nothing really changes, thursday friday, saturday I work at the bakery, and get paid for my job, I complete the jobs I've done and church on Sundays.
Again very careful of what I commit myself to do.

I go out and see my friends, sometimes, but again I'm not obliged to help or see them if I don't want to.

In this day in age, we have a mentallity, that we must always be there here and everywhere, and must be in other peoples lives.

No we don't.

It's only because if that person opens up themselves that we riducule them, and we in turn open our own selves up to do so.

I have learnt this the hard way, and it hurts, because i have trusted them, and have used it to ''better, themselves'' that is why I enjoy my horse work, because horses, go on so much, on engery, trust, they pick up what you're going through.

They will react to what you're reacting to.
Those are my thoughts for today.
Chloe