Lesons from life.

Hello my friends.
How's it all going?
I've been wanting to write for a while, and since my break in ward 9C.
I haven't been a bit amiss about my blog.
I am sorry for that.

What I want to share with you today, is, that no matter what you do, you really do count and matter.

You might think  ''oh thanks for that'' but you really do.
It's not until you have a breakdown, you actually  are told to take it easy.
I thought I was taking it easy.
But as I look back, I think back on somethings, and prayers, that I know, have been answered, and I'm like a painting, still work in process. Some paint has dried, but I'm still a work in progress.

I think that's what we need to value, and take home with you today.
That no matter what you are going through you are like a painting, a really bold, beautiful painting, still work in progress.

How, you might ask?

Well we're are all here by some grand design.

In ward 9C, is no matter how ''tough you are.''  you can not plan or schedule a breakdown.

As the minutes, turn into days, days turn into months, and years.

I was doing rather nicely.

What got you through it?
I believe having something in your heart.

Christ, but also study, because if I didn't study, who knows this thing would have happened in Invercargil.

BUt it didn't.

In life, it is extremely important read the signs, if you're not well, not just as my friend said sweep it up under the carpet, and then trip up on the pile, afterwards.


I was praying, one day to make our family strong.

And this was one of the many ways, of Jesus answering my prayers.
My mothers heart has totally changed, and we're back to the way we used to be.

Some people say,  oh you'll be back to your normal self.
And to a point I am, but I'm now saying new normal self.

See we have to die to our old self, a bit like tulips, and other spring bulbs.

If you lift them out of the ground, each winter you will get a second planting.
However if you leave them in, they will rot, in only a few will survive.

Gardeners have to plan and plant to the weather conditions.

There's not much point, if soil doesn't like the plant, trust me, I planted a Chattam island forget me not, in dry soil, it likes shade, and water.

You might think, oh the Chattams, are dry and barren, why didn't it like my dry and barren, soil?
I wasn't looking after it,and or it only survived on the nutrients in the pot.

Gardners plant to the soil and weather conditons, if you were doing a sea landscape, you'd plant succlenets, and other plants, and really go for blues, deep grey's  and others plants. Not orriental lillies.


One thing we like to do, is to beat ourselves some lies, and we believe them.

or others, just little half truths, trying to keep ourselves safe.

I know I've done it.

what was it about?
A pencil sharpener.

What?
Yes, a pencil sharpener.

I sharpened all the pencils in the ward, with this amazing, sharpener and left it out, and went out for a grounds walk, then came back, and made myself a cup of tea, one thing lead to another and mum trusted me with this sharpener

it was left out all day, even when I was home.

Lunch was great, but this sharpener was on my mind, the what if's came, what if it's not there by the time I get back?

Well yes, it was, but my journal that I was working on was taken.

It was found later in the day, and mercy called.

Now I am called, to mercy, because mercy lead us to the cross.

And calls us to forgive.

We are here for a purpose, please don't think you don't have a purpose. because you do.

One of the sad and tragic things, is that young people don't know that they have a purpose, we don't know how much it hurts our nation to not have a purpose.

One of my days I  was in hospital, 2 people tried to commit suicide or attempted, one guy there,  tried in the airport before boarding his plane.

And he sat across from me, so hungry, and his eyes I'd tried to smile and look into his eyes, not in a romantic way, but just to get some light back into his soul.

Nothing.

It wasn't till the last day he laughed, and his eyes, had light back into them.
I don't normally pray in bathrooms, but I prayed out loud,  and Jesus must have heard my prayers, and melted this mans heart.

Well  that's all I wanted to share with you today
Chloe