Scenes of Heaven.

Hello there.
How's it all going?
I have to say, that this past few 11 days has got me on a new train of thought.

If you were to ask me, what life has been like?
I'd say it was very different now.
Why you might ask? at 4 :48 on a monday night?

Well I was of the 1% of New Zealand, to have what they call a mental break down.

I wasn't prepared for it, me, who has never been to the doctor for anything, had a nice ''holiday'' in Ward 9c, at Waikai hospital.

What was it like for my parents, over those 11 or so days?

Frightening, me going into my room, talking to a ''friend'' now this friend is complelty real, but  I had a feeling that some how, through unknown technology, we talked through the phone lines.

And yes, it was another interesting, expereince, one that will never hopefully happen again.

I was believing, that even in the hopital, that somehow the light even was a tape recorder, by the way it was clicking, but that was only because , later I found out that it was cooling down.
Apparently I'm not the only one, that thought this. so that was good.

I was doing my normal things, until, one day, my head had enough, like enough enough.

I made a 111 call, out to someone, and it wasn't serious enough, so they put me onto a auckland number.

I left my body 4 times, 3 times at home, with head pain so much, that I left my body, and saw a massive, unending tunnel, this was a tunnel filled with angel wings, and their beating, I just floated through.
And towers of all these beautiful building built with silver, towers and towers of buildings, and billions of flowers blowing in the angles wings, never fading.

And Rose, I met Rose, Rose, was a person, who I knew, she looked beautiful, with blond hair, with roses in her hair, she was standing in a crowd of people, but to the side.

once I saw her face I knew it was her.

then I came down again, but then I went up again, then came down again.

Then I had arc angels in my hospital room, they were massive, but before that, 2 days before that, I saw angles marching up and down, the drive way.

It was like they were proteching me, from what was about to happen.

You know when you have these expeiences, you know, that life is precious, and you know, that you've been to Heaven.

Because once you come out of it, you know in your heart, and Jesus is so close, so close you can touch him, well really hug him.
Like being a little child, reading a book on his knee.

I remember, coming out of a meeting, with the doctor, and professior, that really was wonderful, coming out of the meeting not knowing where my room was, so had to be directed to it.

My brain felt like it was being wiped of all info, it was so full, so full, of everything. like my brick was in my head instead of a brain.

Dull, heavy and painful.

This continued oh for 3 days. till the medication kicked in.

I am now on medication for a year.

Here was me, going about her normal week, I saw Jasper, picked her up, took her out, then did Dad's shirts, then I did something else.
Then boom, brain malfunction.

Scary yes, however in Hospital at ward 9C, I met some amazing people, that I just spent time with.

There's something about, a hospital, that once you are in there for 11 days, you get to know a few things.

That people need relationships, and love. that's all that they need.

and the right care from nurses.

And as I was in the bathroom, one day a sense of something came over me, you know when you are like. Oh dear God there's so many needs, and you're aware of them?
" but also need to know who to look after yourself?

I just prayed, and prayed for all of them.

We have amazing nurses, and people in there that care, we really do.

It's an amazing part of hospital really.

I've managed to plan my days better, to look after my self, to have family know, that I am only starting out, nothing to do with me. but just to let them know. a few things.

I remember praying, one day for something to happen, to make our family close.
Jesus reminded me today, of a few things.

He said '' Chloe do you remember that Lord please bring our family close again prayer?" well I just answered it for you.

And he's so close to me now, I hear his voice all the time, and it's not the medication.

Well I better let that do.
Lots of love
Chloe