Hello there,
Welcome to my blog.
I hope that you're enjoying your day, with a nice cup of tea, ( which solves many a thing.)
I was thinking the other day, of just stopping and pausing, and how sometimes we forget to take a breath and enjoy the moment.
I was out recently with my new sister in law, ( the lovely Jenna, my oldest brothers wife.) and how she's part of the family now, I've waited a long time to have a sister, so I'm thrilled that Jenna is part of the family.
As I was waiting for her in a coffee shop here, in the octagon, I suddenly realised, that I haven't paused and enjoyed the moment in life.
I've been contantsly on the move, and just pausing and waiting is quite a gift and enjoying it, it was if Jesus just wanted me at his feet, looking down on me, going ''just stop for a moment, can you just stop and not rush around?" and that is what I was doing.
After my breakdown, I had to get a exit plan going on, and I can't tell you, when I was in that hospital, I was running around like a frighten mare, looking for anyway to escape. and when the professor, came to me, going you can go on monday, I wrote in my book '' monday release day.'' I had to do that to get my mind, in the right place.
I haven't done much of things I had planned to do, but one thing I've done, is taking up horse ridding lessons. I've always wanted to go horse ridding, and be good at it, since we have horse people in our family.
My great grandfather on my mother side was an excellent horse man, and my grandfather rode a horse to school, and tied it up and rode him back, afterwards.
Horses are heard animals, once they accept you, you're part of the herd.
I had to learn this, not just ''come here horsey, I have an apple for you.'' sort of thing. they have to communicate with you, through their body language, and series of snorts, and whinnies.
I was out on my friends horse farm, and watched the trot away on a river trec.
the wind was blowing their trees about, and the sun was out, and I thought ''this is the life'' and then there's James.
A through bred horse. who needs more food, than the rest because of weight gain, much like the protein shakes, that you drink after a work out to build muscle.
James wasn't for the track, he would panic, and he just simply would not race.
he would be beside himself, with panic attacks.
That is until, my friend got him, and put him in her school, to be a schooled horse.
It took a little while, for James to calm down, and take a saddle, and be part of the herd.
And that is where Jesus wanted me, perhaps you're reading this thinking ''yep I'm like James.'' of course your not a horse, but maybe you think that things have passed by you, you thought, thing would go this way or that way.
and you're not bred to race.
Maybe you're on a different track, from the one that Jesus wanted you on, and it's taken a while to get back, to where he wanted you, a sort of ''breaking in.''
thing going on.
We all need breaking in, it's part of his will for our lives, we can't bolt ahead, and think we're doing fine, when we're not.
To break in a horse, you need to be consistent, it's repetitive work.
not that I've done it, but the horse gradually becomes part of you. and bends to your will, but you also have to treat it nicely, and you have to daily put them to work, or else behavioural problems arrise.
They have to have paddock mates, so that they don't become bored, you have to do your part to look after a horse, you can't just neglect it.
Jesus is the only way, you can't have life and live how you want to live, if you don't have his will for your life.
You need to be broken into the ''holy spirit.'' and be under his will.
It may take a while, but the more you spend with him, the more you get out of live and live it to abundance.
Jesus wants you to live life to the full.
I was in my room the other day, just sulking, I was telling him, what was what.
To the point I was so unhappy, that I made up my mind not to go to the friends wedding, because of work, and that others are just '' giving everthing a go, and everything works out with them, but not for me.'' I was like a bolted horse.
running around, and in my suborness I was sinning. but yet, I was trying to be a good Christian.
And that is when Jesus came to me, and said ''Chloe you are sinning by trying to be good all the time, and I know the pefect plans, I have for you, plans to give you a hope and a furture, don't forget that.'' that instatly stopped my sulking, and I pulled up my socks, put my big girls undies back on, hitched them even higher, and worked harder, because Jesus has a perfect plan for you and for me.
I couldn't let down my friend now, because of well just feeling sorry for myself, wasn't an option, and big girls don't sulk, they cry sometimes, but they don't sulk.
Taking a step back, and looking at the behavior of horses, and to me, horses take a step back, and they think about what the human is asking them to do.
If it's good, they will do it, but treat a horse badly, they will remember.
And remember that Jesus is looking down on you too.
In your righteous do not sin.
That is me, and what I have been learning about today.
Chloe
,
No comments:
Post a Comment